Reminiscing the past

This past weekend I was slowly trying to organize old photos and albums. The process that should have only taken one or maybe two hours at the most was taking me a whole lot more time.

I happened to come across class pictures from when I was in Ms. McDonna's kindergarten class, Ms. Robinson's first grade class, and Ms. Harrison's second grade class back when I went to Seaside Elementary and from when I was in Mrs. William's third grade class at Rose Avenue.

I found myself stopping my organizing efforts (yet again) to reminisce the past. It was entertaining looking at how young everyone looked in those pictures. There was the one girl who was my close friend for two years. And there was the girl who got me my first (and only) red card in second grade. There was the boy who had been in my class for all the three years I had been at Seaside. There was the girl who I used to play soccer with. There was the girl who taught me how to do the coffee grinder dance move. There were the girls I used to spend time with on the playground. It was fun thinking about times when my biggest problems were getting a turn on the swings at lunch time or writing the best journal story.
All this past-recalling brought up so many questions. Since I had left Seaside very abruptly during the summer after second grade, I wondered if anyone missed me. I'd like to believe that I knew many people but I really wonder if kids from my classes would still remember who I was. The same applied to the friends I made at Rose Avenue. At that moment I also wondered what everyone had grown up to be like.
Now I didn't mean to be stalker-ish but I went on Facebook and typed in a few of my elementary school friend's names. To my surprise, I found a couple of my friends and a few acquaintances. They didn't seem to have changed very much in that I could recognize them by their faces but their personalities seemed to have changed. My closest friends from elementary school seemed like I would still have known them if I hadn't moved. Another kid that I remember being seriously lost in his own world with Starwars Sith Lords and Pokemon Pikachu battles turned out to have a profile picture that had "teen angst" and "I think I'm so cool" written all over it. It made me laugh how unpredictable people turn out to be as they get a better gauge of the world around them.
I didn't extend any friendship invitations though, it was weird enough trying to see the kids from my past. But it was an interesting nonetheless to see the people that I could have grown up around.

A Walk to Remember

(This post actually happened a few weeks ago.)

Today my mom and I thought we would quickly take Panther out for a walk. The rain has kept us from taking him lately. So I changed into some comfy clothes, put on my running shoes, and waited on my porch for my mother come out.
The weather outside was very pretty and it seemed like the rain clouds seemed to be clearing up. I felt confident, despite the rain warning yahoo weather claimed, that we would not get rained on.
My mom was on the phone with my dad and they talked for at least 15 minutes. When she hung up the phone the weather still seemed fair.
We began walking around my neighborhood. There was a mini park about 15 minutes away from where I live and decided to let Panther play and run around to stretch his legs. On our way there we met a little boy who was playing in his front yard with the most adorable black lab puppy. We stopped to let the puppy and Panther get to know each other.
A couple years ago, Panther was very interested in getting to know other people and other dogs, but ever since he turned three he's been acting very mature in public. So, we watched the puppy prance around trying to get Panther to chase him. It was the most adorable sight! Sadly we had to get on with our walk and reluctantly had to leave the puppy.
The park was very close to where we left the puppy. Only a few minutes had passed before, to our surprise, we saw the same puppy trotting into the park. It had obviously followed Panther's scent. He was such a rambunctious and inquisitive little squirt. My mom and I decided to just stay in the park instead of going on a circuit route that would have taken at the very least 30 minutes to complete.
Call it fate, good luck, or sheer coincidence that we got out of falling prey to a Friday the 13th misfortune because of that adorable puppy. It began sprinkling as my mom and I sat at the swings. Grey clouds overhead signaled that we should start getting home soon.
We helped the little boy get the hyper puppy back home. A few seconds later, it began to rain even harder. And only a minute later it began to hail! I love the rain but I can't stand when my sweatshirt gets wet, so I began jogging back home. The irritating little pieces of ice don't look like much, but at that moment, wearing running shorts didn't seem like the best decision I made that day.
The painfully sharp hail was irritating for me but I never imagined the effect it would have on Panther. He decided to stop running halfway back home and locked his legs, refusing to budge an inch. This caused me to be jerked to a sudden and slightly painful stop. It took my mother's very convincing coaxing to get Panther to walk the last few minutes back home. Our sweatshirts were drenched and our shoes were soaked to the socks.
It was good fortune that my mom and I did not get stuck out in the rain if we had not met the sweet little puppy.

(Just a side note: I had to try very hard to not inject movie titles throughout this post in order to follow with the theme created by the title of this post seeing that half the titles were either from Hindi movies or from really dated movies from the 40's and 50's.)

Don't Rant to Me

Ok people, if you're going to talk to me, don't b**** about how much YOUR life sucks. Don't even go there. Because chances are you will tell me that your phone won't work as fast as you want it to, or that your car is old. You know what? People in Rocklin are stupid. Just purely stupid. Your life is not that bad.

If you're mad at both your parents, be happy they are BOTH THERE FOR YOU. Not having my dad around makes me realize how much he impacts my life. The only way I can talk to him is through e-mail or Skype. And even then, it doesn't happen often. I miss him even if we did have our differences. Also, he was the one to drive from Sacramento each freakin' day just to give me a car-ride home. Now, I walk home. Don't rant about that either. Just cause your mom or dad can't pick you up ONE DAY doesn't give you the right to go about saying that they don't care about you or that they suck. This will make me want to slap you silly.

Think your phone is the crappiest one in Rocklin? Well, BE HAPPY YOU HAVE ONE. I don't care if it's slow or sometimes freaks out, the underlying message is that it works. I don't have one, so I have to depend on my mom if I need to call somebody, which I'm so happy that she's willing to share it.

My back hurts. It's been hurting for a bit. And chances are if I go to the doctor, it'll cost us a lot. Especially since I don't have medical insurance. It sucks, but I get by. I'm hoping that it'll go away, but if it doesn't, then oh well.

Like, people just need to realize that they have a really good life. And I'm not saying that I have a crappy life. I'm happy for what I have and yes, I do want some other things. But seriously, YOU DON'T LIVE IN THE GHETTO, YOU AREN'T SURROUNDED BY CRIMINALS, YOU AREN'T GONNA GET SHOT, so you know what? Don't rant THAT MUCH about how sucky your life is. Because it doesn't suck......Stupid people and their stupid rants....give me a break.

Unless, of course, I love you, then I give you permission to rant.

Getting Lost

I dont understand how people get lost haha franchesca tried to get back to rocklin  and ended uo in newcastle...my girlfriend tried to get to rosemot and ended up in castlemont...how does this happen? Idk but i never get lost maybe im just good with directions but i swear the signs make sense, but most people seem to disagree with me. Are you good with directions or bad?

OPS week!

On top of the exciting senior activites coming up, OPS week is here!

For those of you who don't know, OPS stands for One Person Show. Theatre 4 students (which is the highest you can go in Rocklin's theatre program) write, direct, cast, and star in their own show. It's a big deal. And stressful is an understatement. Usually each show lasts from 15-30 minutes. The average is 20 minutes and there are 4 shows each night this week. Tickets will be between $4-5.

So yeah, my night is on Thursday and it will be awesome and you guys should stop by. You will laugh so hard. Also, feel free to go the other nights also, because everyone has worked super hard. So yeah :)

Summer

Only 29 days left as a sophomore!!! I am so ready to be upperclassmen and be that much closer to graduating. I am excited for summer so I can relax and recoup from this extremely crazy and busy year. This year has been the most stressful year and it has really taken its toll on me. I can already picture waking up to the sun shining through the closed blinds, walking to the kitchen to enjoy my breakfast and not scarf it down, laying the the warm grass looking up at the sky and not having to do anything!

TWO WEEKS LEFT.

Two weeks.
That's how much longer the seniors have before the six flags trip and senior ball. To be honest, I can't wait. I'm counting down the days. I have my dress, I know what I want to do with my hair, I have my lovely date and I certaintly can't wait to run around six flags all day with my theatre friends.
The perks of being a senior. Honestly, graduation won't come fast enough, but that's okay, because we have all these fun activites in between.

Class of 2012 FTW.

CST's

CST testing week is over for most, but for me, I have three more to go. I was sick tuesday through thursday so I missed the LA, Math, and science tests. I am a little stressed because along with this crazy week, I have to make them all up during class time. I don't want to take them but I know that we have to keep our API up.

I don't think many people understand how much mental preparedness goes into sports. Like, when people say running is 20% physical, and 80% mental, they mean it. in the course of one season, i went from being out of it mentally and running 5min miles to PRing by seven seconds in one race. However, i think mind set has to do with more than just sports and people should be making a bigger deal about it. Or at least be more encouraging to people to do well.

Silly Blogging

Blogging is silly, you blog about what is going on in your life or what interests you but all that's going on in my life is school and sports and that's all i blog about. I wish school was out so maybe i would have something else to blog about. But that probably won't be the case knowing me.

LOSING MORE

FOR ALL YOU POTHEADS THAT THINK YOUR COOL AND ARE TRYING TO TAKE AWAY MORE OF MY FRIENDS, BACK OFF. I HATE YOU. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!now off to hurrianko's class....

AR

Sorry but I still never got the concept of why AR is necessary. I mean reading books for a grade? Shouldn't that be kind of an optional thing? You already go through 2 books in LA/Comm so why do you have to read even more then that? I would think that should be required in middle school but in high school I am pretty sure everyone knows how to read.

A Haiku

Tweet tweet go the birds
Baa baa go the wooly sheep
Moo moo says the cow

Summer

Alright so a few days ago it was 90 degress and felt like summer but now the last few days its been raining all day. Can this weather seriously get any more unusual? Summer better arrive freaking soon....

Sadies Lunchtime Games

Joey Haug beautifies Kayce Tynan during Sadies lunchtime games

The water hits gently vibrating every sensation.

I hear the water splash and it makes my senses swirl.

My eyes flood with teary drops that fall briskly down my cheeks.

My heart beats lightly, softly, slow.

My fingers crawl to refuge in my puny pockets of warmth.

My socks soak in the cold that bitterly bites my toes.

  There I stood, I froze.

Just a random little poem that I wrote while it's raining with a picture that matched :) I have really been thinking about pursuing writing as my major in college and ultimatley my carreer. Whether it is journalism, blogging, creative writing, being a novelist. I don't really care, I just love to write stories, it is my creative outlet.

A Wedding for Dogs?

A wedding for dogs? Is that ridiculous or what?  I was just on Yahoo scrolling through the news when this article caught my eye (http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/sideshow/dogs-5-000-wedding-amenities-171017513.html )  Apparently they spent $5,000 on the wedding. That is just plain weird. I know that people really love their pets, but a wedding seems very strange. They had a live band, 100 guests, a wedding cake and security. Hmm.. However, there was some good that came from this, in that guests donated money to a charity that the owners had agreed upon. I guess this is what happens today, who knows what's next...

Weekend at Davis

On Friday after school my friend Brit Husmann and I went to visit our friend Danielle at UC Davis. It was so much fun! We walked around the campus, visited friends, ate at the dining commons, got frozen yogurt, and went hot tubbing. The next day was picnic day, which was a lot different than I expected. There was a parade, lots of little booths, dog races/shows, a sledding hill with snow, and a magic show. I never realized how big UC Davis is and I really liked the campus and surrounding town. It was a great weekend, even though it was a little hot and we unfortunately got a parking ticket on Friday night. Although I’m not going to UC Davis, this past weekend has made me really excited to go to college next year!

Career Project

So a couple months ago, Rhiannon gave me a fabulous idea! I am probably not going to go through with it, but I love the idea anyway. So I want to be a Fiction Author and one of my fav. books is Harry Potter. her idea was that I storm into the room with the theme song playing during my presentation and then give my speech, leading from the Harry Potter theme song into becoming an author. yeah, immature? I think yes. But nonetheless, this is something I would totally do if I wasn't being graded on seriousness.

Miss Moody

Yes, I am ranting. Usually for me, right? Well, I can't take it anymore. A "friend" of mine thinks they can judge others and expects not to be judged themself, and act the way they do and say the things they say with the only excuses of "I have a headache", "I'm moody", and the all famous silent death glare. Now, I know that being moody can make you act differently at times, but if that is her excuse, then my friend is moody EVERYDAY. Yes,  they are my friend so I should deal with it; well I am done. Why not trying to give them a taste of their own medicine? I have tried and have been "threatened" in the since of 'haha, like you could/would'. Or when I do say "okay, then, congrats on being moody" or "okay, have fun with that", I get that silent death glare once again. So yeah. I know there are people in the world that are like this everyday and everywhere, but this person has driven me up the freakin wall. There, *whew*, I am through with my rant and got all my angry vibes out.

English

So, for English, we are doing Career Projects. I have so many careers I want to learn about, that it makes this project both helpful, and really annoying. As I'm researching the career I picked, I keep learning more and more about other careers. So now my list of careers has gone from less than five, to about ten. If only I was the kid who knew exactly what she wanted to do for the rest of her life...

CSTs

Well, one down, three to go! I can't believe that once this week is over, we will be on the home stretch! Only 31 days left! I'm so ready for summer: for the heat, the free time, and not having to sit in a desk for six hours a day. AND NO MORE TESTS! That's the best part. Until next year at least...
Good luck on the CSTs!

Loving this weather!

This weather just instantly puts me in a good mood. I'm loving the sun and especially the breeze. And the fact that I just bought tons of spring clothes makes it even better. I hope it stays like this and isn't like the past weeks where it starts randomly raining. Fingers crossed!

Wisdom Teeth

Sooo I got my Wisdom teeth out a couple weeks ago and I had the absolute worst experience of my life! Today is the only day where I have felt ok, and wednesday I offically was feeling a little bit better, enough to stop taking my medication. That is just ridiculous. I knew it was going to be painful but I thought it would last for a couple days not a couple weeks. Everyone that I have talked to that got their wisdom teeth out didn't have to deal with the pain this long, the longest I heared was like a week and a half. I went back to the oral surgeon and he said normally people dont stay in pain for as long as I was but he also said some just react differently to it, and that I should be fine eventually.

Then on monday, to make everything worse I got sick. Apperently I just can't feel normal without having my whole face in major pain, or not being able to breathe through my nose. Hopefully I get completely better soon because pretty much this whole month I have felt like crap.

Sad day...

So Devin Moss is not here today, he's at a basketball tournament in Vegas. Anyway, Journalism does not feel the same without him sitting next to me. At least Amber came and sat in his spot next to me so I'm not all alone! Hopefully he does great at his tournament! We miss you Devin!!

LAKE

Now that the weather is FINALLY warm, all I want to do is go to the lake. I don't want to sit in a classroom. I don't want to listen to the teachers talk. I don't want to go home just to do homework. I don't want to study for SATs. I don't want to pretend like I care about CSTs. I don't want to dress like I'm going to church so that I obey the RHS dress code. I just don't want to be at school.

I want to go to the lake. I want to wear my bikini. I want to get tan. I want to go swimming. I want to meet cute guys at the beach. I want lay out all day long. I want to be out of here.

Awesome place

so everyday come lunchtime, I find myself doing the usual; eating mediocre lunch food, having some random conversation with friends, sitting out in the sun and feeling the uncontrollable urge to take a nap. But yesterday instead of doing that, I went with a couple friends to the guitar lab room, where all lunch, we played pianoes and guitars, jammed out together and such. And all these musicians in the school came in and out, as we played and practiced. It was pretty chill and most of all refreshing.

This Week.

Complaining is something that I like to do, so that is what I will doing right now. This week has been terrible. Absolutely nothing has gone right. It all started off with me waking up Monday morning with a 101 degree fever, and carrying on through Wednesday. Along with hot flashes and chills, I've had a horrible sore throat, a migraine and swollen sinuses. Let's be honest, school is already bad enough when you are feeling dandy. Put together 6 hours of lecturing teachers and the feeling of death, and you have a lightweight version of hell. I am feeling better now, but not quite perfect.

What else has gone wrong this week? Well, the juniors practically got raped in Powderpuff. In addition to their entire team being twice our size, they also had a lot more practice than we did, and ultimately, better coaching. I wasn't delusional, I knew we were going to lose but I was hoping for it to be at least close. Being one of the most competitive people in the world, losing 35-12 doesn't cut it for me. I still get mad when anyone bring up the game, even though it was four days ago.

These are just two of the many things that have gone wrong this week. I could write on and on about certain a**hole guys, and certain "friends" who have contributed to this terrible week, but I know that honestly, you all don't care. And I don't blame you.

Just...Done...

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh asjkdffj asdiopfj asipfdj this school year has been a drag, and especially with this nice weather, im just ready for it to be summer. I'm behind  in soooo many classes, but im just sick of working and I know I should, but I really don't feel like it. But come the last 3 weeks of school, I know I will be kissing butt and begging to pass my classes.

life=one direction

They are literally my life. I don't know. I never get like this with anything besides 'Friends'. I don't know what's come over me but yes, I confess, I AM OBSESSED WITH ONE DIRECTION!!

Gosh. I pretty much spent all Spring Break watching YouTube videos. Video diaries, podcasts, X Factor auditions, music videos, and loads of pictures of them.

They are just too darn cute. It's not that awkward band situation where they are all cute except for one. No! It's not like. ALL of them are quite handsome. But, of course, there is one that always stands out to me. Zain. Oh Zain. His voice is like that of a soulful gospel singer. Love him.

I am addicted. When I could be getting about 8-9 hours of sleep, I sadly reduce to 6-7 hours cause I decide to waste those hours watching One Direction. Gahhh. I can't stop.

I made a Twitter last weekend and the only reason why is to follow One Direction. Gosh!!! it's a disease. I admit. I have one direction infection. But you know what, I am totally proud of it :)

RANT

So I don't usually go on rants here, but right now I need to. Read at your own risk. So I am just so frustrated with the world right now. Specifically my parents. I have gotten my car and phone taken away until the end of the week. I got them taken away this morning because I gave them too much sass. They told me they don't think I'm living up to my potential because I didn't break 1900 on my SAT's the first time... I wasn't that far off... And because I don't have all A's currently... welll I have all A's and B's... all but one of those B's are in my honor and AP classes... so I don't see what the problem is. I told them I was trying and they're all like "well it's not good enough". IO feel like I WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE!!!! GAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm just worried and scared for the future and I just mahhhhahahahahahahahah and I just want to get in to college and have a happy good life. But then I feel like people are bringing me down with negative energy and I'm just frustrated with myself and everyone else. And I don't even think I can get into UCLA anymore, so I really shouldn't wear the sweatshirt I have... I'm wearing it right now, but it's just so comfortable. I'm probably not making any sens. Well I don't care. So sorry if I sound really rude I'm not usually like this. I'm just stressed for the end of the year and my AP tests! I have to get at least a 4 on APUSH and I need to get at least a three on Bio. Why did I sign up for Bio??? I don't know !!!!

Concentration

My concentration is horrible, every lilttle thing has been distracting me. Not only today but all week! I have no idea why but I have been super tired and very unmotivated. I am on my last AP World outline ever and I cannot get it done. I am just so done with school. Which is terrible considering we still have three whole weeks left and I am so close but I am just starting to lose motivation. Ugh, I want summer so bad! I want this torture to end.. I have six pages to finish in nineteen min. and not gonna lie, I do not know how I am going to do that... Dumbd school. Maybe I should just get more sleep.

Dress Not Success

So yesterday I decided that I should finally wear a dress to school. For those of you who know me, I am not a dressy person. I feel most comfortable in shorts, pants, and a t-shirt. But I have "so many" dresses at home that I felt like being girly for once. WRONG. The weather does not approve of thy decision and thought that I would enjoy a cloudy day...... nope. Oh well, I guess my dress will have to wait until Friday and my girlyness will have to be put on hold!

APW

AP tests are coming up! I'm only taking the APW exam, but A LOT of people are taking more than that.

But with APW alone, I have four tests in just that subject, from now until the end of the year. The VERY LAST unit test (finally!!!), the APW Exam, CSTs, and the SAT Subject Test.

Not a very relaxing way to end the year. Oh well, at least we're all on the home stretch :)

Purple Pinky

So, everyone should bring 1$ to school on Wednesday! $1 saves 2 lives!!!

Since when to statistics get better than that?

Polio is a terrible disease that destroys neurons, leading to paralysis and muscle weakness.

One vaccine costs $0.50 and Americans, and other first world countries, send the vaccine to countries like India, to vaccinate infants. Once the children are vaccinated, their pinkies are painted purple, so to spread awareness, Interact club is encouraging YOU to save 2 lives, and have your pinky painted purple. (We use a stain that stays on for a couple hours, and if you really scrub it, it will come off, or we can paint your fingernail purple)

Kids in areas frought with polio are dying in large numbers from this life-long disease.

This disease forces people to live with pain, and and is spread through unsanitary conditions.

Google it!!

Bring money to school tomorrow to get your pinky painted purple! We'll be the ones in purple shirts!

Kids...

After random observation of my neighborhood and other areas, I have come to the conclusion that children sadly don't play outside much anymore. It's kinda nuts, thinking back to summers of running around barefoot and exploring parks, ponds, and little orchards. I understand that phones, computers, and television have in a way squelched the will to explore, but it's disheartening to think that these kids will grow up and wish they had a full childhood. All hope has not been lost however, as I have seen some children who still have it in them to go out and pick up a jump rope to learn something new. There are kids and adults at my karate who have still have it them to want to move and do, so the suggestion merely needs to be made to them to go out and do something. It would be ridiculous to end up with no one at all who wanted to be out in the open air.

ACT

For some reason the ACT seemed incredibly easy on Saturday. I don't know what it was but all of the math and reading was very simple. The hardest part was trying to manage time on the reading and science portion. Since you have 4 articles to read on the reading portion, it is difficult to read each article and then answer all of the questions, so you sort of have to skim through it. The science portion was probably the most difficult because the time went by so fast, you don't really have to know anything about science, just how to read charts and graphs. The problem is that you have to go back and forth from chart to chart that it takes up a lot of time for each question and in the end just have to bubble in random answers on the last few. Overall, it wasn't that bad.

Thunder Invite

Saturday I was at the Rocklin track for 10 and a half hours. We all had to get there at 8 and the meet did not end until 6:30, it was never-ending. Apparently there was a lot more school than last year but that isn't the point of this blog so let me get to the point.

I was one second away from winning the 3200, you know what place I was in? Fourth, fourth place and I was a second away from getting it! I was milliseconds away from 2nd and the girl in 3rd? We got the exact same time! And she got the medal! I don't understand at all, our time was identical down to two milliseconds. 12:28:63, how does it make any sense that she got 3rd and I didn't?? She cut ahead of me in the shoot but really, really? I'm pretty darn sure they should've called that one a tye. I mean it was a 2 mile race, milliseconds are a sprinting thing, not distance! Grrr I don't even remember her being anywhere near me until the finish line. I must have been dellusional. Either way it is frustrating and I am furious at whoever decided she was ahead of me. MILLISECONDS

New Phone!

So I finally got a new phone!!!!! After two months of my phone not working for texting and its touch screen, I finally got a new phone yesterday. It's not the iPhone, but I can't complain. I'll get that phone after graduation. The phone I got is a samsung brightside? I think that's the name. It has a touch screen and slides into a keyboard. I'm so glad I can finally text again and talk to people! The only thing that sucks is that my contacts didn't' carry over! I have to get everyone's contacts again. But still ohmigosh I'm so excited!!!

rain during school

I do not despise anything more than rain during school. I don't mind the rain of I'm at home, dry. but when I have to walk from class to class and then having to sit in that class wet, it puts me in a very irritable mood.and I always forget about an umbrella! stupid. also I always forget I have rain boots, these things would probably help me be in a better mood during the rainy days if I would remember I have them. oh well.

~natalie pinna and christy sharkey~

JOURNALISM isn't just like any other classes and it is not just a class making the school newspaper but actually knowing more about the people in your class, and especially the people next to you because they are your neighbours in your pod!!
Last year, I don't know these people... after three years in this school, on my last year, I took photojournalism 2 where its combines with the journalism students and I come to make new friends with natalie pinna and christy sharkey who are amazingly really nice and funny! they are my journalism neighbours in my pod. Natalie, who when i first met her, reminded me of the latina version of barbie and who is also a senior. And Christy, who is always make people in our pod feels happy. Its somewhat sad that I become to know them better on my last year. But its been a great times with them.

What goes up, must come down... and then hopefully back up again.

Life trully is a rollercoaster. And rollercoasters can be fun sometimes. Or scary... Sometimes you raise up your arms and scream your lungs out without a care in the world, like nothing can stop you. Other times you are clinging on to your seat for dear life, your body so tense... And all you want to do is throw up. The rule of thumb is, what goes up must come down. Everything in life will be running smoothly, and then out of no where you feel like your're falling through a black hole of nothingness. You hope something will save you before you hit rock bottom... That's the point I'm at right now. I'm at the point where the future is bright, but I'm still stuck in that downward plummiting, get me out of here kind of place. Ha wow this makes no sense...

Dailylook.com

Dailylook.com is a fashion website I recently discovered and have quickly became obsessed with it. Each day this website/fashion blog will post one or two designer outfits. All of the pieces in each outfit are from different designers and are placed together in order to create the "dailylook."
As a customer and viewer you are able to share an outift on a social media website and recieve look points. Every 10 look points you recieve can be used as 10 dollars on any piece from the daily look. Each daily look is on sale at a discounted rate for 36 hours and then left on the website in past looks but not on at a discounted rate.
Each morning I look forward to getting my dailylook.com email where they display the outfit of the day and hope there is piece I can use!
Check out Dailylook.com !

music of the week

I just realize that I always have music of the week. The music I listen always depend on my mood and how my life goes during each week. Few weeks ago, I guess I have a better mood so I start listening to mamma mia for almost a week, and last week during spring break, I didn't do anything, feeling slow and tired, I listened to musics from zooey deschanel, jack johnson or ingrid michaelson or regina spektor. And this week, when school start, I actually feel excited, not just because its sadies week but also that going to school, I have something to do every day. But now, almost at the end of the week, I feel mellow and the senioritis I start listening to the beatles of the beach boy. I listen to pandora these days because you never know what songs come next after another. I used to listen to my ipod but because of I listen to it a lot of time, I can almost guess what song will come next and know how the lyrics and the music goes.

Say Oui!

So I brought up the French Trip to my parents last night and they actually sounded like it was possible and that they might say oui! We could afford it and we can probably do it and I was just like YESSSSSSSSSS!
If I do go my brother will probably go to, it will be next Summer 2013, my brother will have graduated and it will be like our last big trip together. Also, this is the first year that the french trip also includes a 6 day stay with a french family in Nice, France where the kids are the same age as us! And we get to go to a French school and obviously see everything France has to offer. If we end up going, I will have a HUGE motivation throughout my Junior year and I know my brother will have a great experience to look forward to when he is done with his Senior year.

Spring Broken

It is great to get time off from school which is my main stressor. And now that I'm back, I'm refreshed and renewed. But life with my friends and family has only gotten more hectic, and has become my new main stressor. It really shows because my dream last night was dark and gory and it involved both my family and my friends.

I got into so many situations over break, and I didn't get to see all my friends, or if I saw some I didn't see them enough and there was so much drama. I really just wish everyone was more laid back, and sometimes I really just wish I had no cell phone, because I seriously loath texting.

Texting to me is a form to get rid of boredem which I understand, your in the car and you want to talk to your friends. But really you just ignore everything happening around you and waste time you could actually be doing something productive or fun. When other people text and ignore it is one of my biggest pet peeves, so when I do it I feel terrible.

The thing is, you can't just ignore texts, because people know you got them, and just an, "ok," or "lol," is no longer sufficent.

Anyways, some postives to my break, I went to Santa Cruz, I saw The Hunger Games for the second time, and I got my hair cut and dyed.

No Sleep = Awesome Blue Day

Oh yes, I'm up. I can't sleep. Still have half an outline to do. It sucks and it's boring. Feel an essay coming on tomorrow. Bleh. I'm really mellow right now. Totally different from my last blog. It must be because I'm listening to The Perishers.

I'm a lil depressed though. Hmm, and that's not from the music. I guess you could say I miss a certain somebody. Well, certain people. Like my best friend(whom I love to death), my dad, and Chris. The guys that have walked out of my life at some point and haven't exactly reconnected with me. All of them said "Everything will be ok." It isn't.

As for my lost friend, whom I tried to make up with...I give up. No more. Put your school work and other best friends ahead of me. I don't need you. I will not forget everything we had. Definitely not, but I will accept the people in my life that WANT to be a part of it. I guess you aren't one of them. Say the loving things to her as you did to me. It doesn't hurt anymore to hear it. You lied about how much I meant to you. Just like the aforementioned people. Is that a word? Oh well, I made it up.

I'm so looking forward to a day with Hurrianko, writing an entire article in the morning, and a possible essay or lecture after Hurrianko, but at least I can be retarded in Wagner's class.

Whatever

Only time to blog...my 's' key isn't working too well. So if it looks like I'm typing horribly, it's just an f*ed up keyboard that's cauing it. <--See? Oh well.

I have to say, I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate people. Anybody that has a cla with me probably knows who I'm talking about. But IF YOU WANT TO MAKE ME FEEL RETARDED, THEN KEEP TRYING. SCREW YOU! ARGH. I HATE GOING TO SCHOOL! The people...I jut can't take it anymore!

Also, for everybody trying to persuade me to vote for you. IT IN'T GOIN TO WORK. SO BACK OFF. I don't care how many freaking cookies or cupcakes you have. I know you won't do anything you say you will. LIAR!(I'd make it plural, but I can't!) After seeing how much Joey D. changed my sophomore year, I have to say that I have lost faith in anybody running for whatever stupid position it is. Not that anybody REALLY cares. I would be so much more rude right now, but honestly, all I want to do is watch Silent Hill, but nothing is going my way. I...I just don't like people. Also, for anybody who plans the dances at RHS, you do a horrible job. I sure as hell am NOT going to pay $10 to dance for 2 hours. I would've aked somebody to adies, sure. Actually, probably not, but that's not the point. I WILL NOT PAY YOUR RIDICULOUS FREAKING PRICES. I WILL NOT GIVE IN. ARGH, I'M NOT STRESED, PEOPLE JUST KILL ME.

Stupid stupid people trying to rip me off.....hehe....not this time...but still....killin me....gonna make me go broke....:P

My Spring Break...

My Spring Break wasn't the best i've had, but turned out OK.
Its funny actually, because i started getting a little jealous of some of the statuses on facebook because the news feed was filled with "break is going great. its the best" and i was just sitting there doing nothing, while the sun was shining through the window and begging me to go outside. But i never got any plans completely set in motion...

But i gotta say that spending the day in San Fran with my family was the best day ive had in a while because:
We visited Chinatown and got yelled at by an old chinese woman because we wouldnt buy the pendants she was selling. And i swear she muttered some curse under her breath...Yikes

Afterwards we went on the Crooked Street and it was alot of fun.theres always so many people there taking as many pictures as possible. It probably gets really old for the people that live there though, because people park in their spots and theres always a lot of traffic

I'm just excited for SUMMER because honestly i need another break. I'm not done with being able to relax about the day and not worry about any HW woes.

My Easter Basket

Ya know, I'm probably getting old for this, but here's my Easter Basket:

• MockingJay
• Two Free Passes to the Movies
• Candy

San Francisco

Ya know the first few times i went to san francisco i wasn't that impressed. I mean i get it's an international city, but call me a downer or whatever I just didn't have that much fun. Over spring break though i visited the city thursday and friday and i had a really good time with my family. We went to the House of Prime Rib and i had one of the best dinners i've ever had while dining out (and largest portioned), we went to fisherman's whard and Pier 39. I had crepes twice, and we visited Chinatown, lombard street (the curviest street in the world), Coit Tower, Union Square, and Joe's Cable Car (the best burgers you'll ever taste, if you haven't been there... GET THERE!). I had a great time sightseeing and shopping with my family i wish i could go back. Maybe it's just because i'm older, but i definitely had a good time and now appreciate the golden city.

....... not here

DAVISDAVISDAVISDAVISDAVISDAVISDAVISDAVISDAVISDAVISDAVISDAVISDAVIS

I want to be there now.

Senioritis.

Gah!

geh...

bleh...

high school...

Get me out of here!

Summer, come faster.

I'm ready to start my life!

I'm ready to meet new people!

I'm ready to start over...

College is all I want to talk about.

It's all I think about.

I don't sleep at night because I'm just thinking about college.

EEEEEEPPPPPP!!!!!!

Can't Have It All

I have senioritus. Although I am only a wee Junior, I have already been afflicted with the aging curse mentioned in the last sentence. I realized this today, as I concurrently realized that I had not done any of my homework over the break. That is a heartbreaking feeling, I kid you not.

I have also not:
1) Excercised
2) Studied for my many upcoming tests
3) Practiced my (supposed-to-be) state speech
4) Other

What has happened to my usual spark and drive? Has it disappeared along with my lack of sleep and my lack of nutrition? Over break, I have actually slept with normal hours. I have also ate three relatively normal meals and snacks, instead of just fasting all day and then gorging during dinner. How healthful...how academically non-successful....I also hung out with friends and did not talk excessively about academics. I ALSO JAYWALKED! Ooooh, dangerous.

What I gained in health and happiness will be lost in my academics.

I guess you can't have it all.

Driving

So on Monday I got my permit and today I had my first driving lesson. I was a nervous wreck. I started out really calm, then went back to nervous and then back to calm. The car itself was nice, but the brake and the gas pedals were super high and I was NOT comfortable with them at all. I would barely touch the pedals and the car would jolt. Not good. But other than that, it was my first time driving and I think I did pretty darn well. My nerves were so jitterbugged that I wanted to go out again when I came home. Only that feeling lasted 15 minutes because I immediately crashed on my bed into an hour long nap. (I hadn't slept well last night because I was so nervous for today). But anyhow, lets just say that whenever my mom or dad goes out now, they will be driven around by me!