Senior Rally

The senior rally today was so incredibly sad, but it was nice to hug all my friends one last time before Graduation. I have to admit, I'm less sad than extremely excited for them.

But I only have three more days, and then FREEDOM! Only four more tests to go!

Junior year has definitely been the busiest year of my life, but looking back, I though sophomore year was way more stressful. 

In one week and one day, I will be on a plane probably over the Atlantic Ocean.... life is good.

Have an AMAZING summer!

Almost there

Only one more week left until freedom! I don't understand why teacher feel like its okay for them to give us tests the last two days because its just not okay with me.

I also am very excited for next year, except I have some scheduling conflicts.  Now instead of being in photoj, I will just be in pubs, so it's not that bad.

Good luck to all of the seniors and I hope everyone has a good summer!!

Time of Our Lives #3

Yes yes...I'm sure most of you groaned when you read the title of this blog i'm writing. oh well. its okay. Senior Rally today and last day for Seniors as well. I didn't know this was the last day for Seniors!!!!!! I was shocked when someone told me. I kind of wanted to cry but I didn't. Last year I only knew ONE senior! Now I know so many more than that. This is crazy!
All I really have left to say is a big Congratulations to the Seniors, you've done great. :)

Summer

Summer, the best times of children's lives.  When your young it is about having fun away from school.  Playing outside with friends was our first priorty.  Now I find myself doing homework and working all summer.  Responsibility is sometimes a pain in the butt.  I guess thats what growing up is about though. 

Alex #9

So I have known Alex for the past two years. Because we've been in Journalism two years in a row, I think we are super comfortable together and we work well together. Sometimes we can get on each others nerves, but I think we have a good balance of ranting to each other and listening. It's really quite nice.

This year we've pretty much tackled every assignment together...And I do think that we've done a pretty good job. We've even done the show together...that was definitely fun.

Right now Alex is eating ice cream and blogging...he's a little grumpy because he stayed up all night. I can't wait until next year!

Last Tests #5

The last days of school are always the most stressful.  For some reason my grade always comes down to the last tests or assignments.  I guess all I can do is study and see what happens.  The worst part about this year is that I have two tests on the last day of school and both could effect my grades if I don't do well.  O well, what can you do.  Just study.

Group Projects #4

Normally group projects are a headache.  Usually one person does all the work, while the rest sit there and do nothing.  And there is always that one person who doesn't show up at all.  However, these past two group projects have gone pretty smooth.  I guess your bond to have a few good ones out of a hundred or so. 

Senior Sunrise #8

So today kicked off our senior year...And I can't believe how fast it has flown by. I remember being dropped off the first day of freshman year and being afraid of going to the wrong class. The time has really flown by and it's surreal. This morning was senior sunrise, and it was really cool. I'm a sentimental person so that really marked the beginning of my last year in high school. I'm not ready to move on, but then again, I have another year. Today is also the senior rally...goodness I don't even want to go. I haven't cried at any of the previous ones but this year, just thinking about the rally has made me tear up. I'm a lot closer to a lot of seniors and it's bittersweet to see them go. Of course we all need to move on in life, but it's sad to see an end to something.


I can't wait for next year!

Busy Work #3

Busy work, what some teachers do at school in order to waste time.  We have note books for history this year and I am tired of doing busy work and coloring in them.  If I wanted to color I would have joined art.  When I get marked off for not coloring enough and I turn around and see someone who drew the title of the unitl in pencil who didn't get marked off, it kind of makes me a little angry. 

Today

Today my playlist was this:
-Paint it black by the Rolling Stones
-Black water by edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros
-Blackbird by the Beatles
(And other songs but that just goes to show black was on my mind)
Why was I so morbid today? Well I guess when one thing happens it just becomes a catalyst that brings to the a view that makes everything seem ugly. It was definitely a bad day. Well at least at school. And the actual learning wasn't the problem. It was the people. And I do not enjoy people at my school sometimes. They drive me crazy and I don't understand how I don't yell my head off at them every day. I mean not everyone at my school is bad but the majority of them are not appealing to me. Also, when I get in this morbid feeling all I can see is people is their ugly sides. And this really depresses me because I usually see the good sides in people and try to always look past the bad sides. So then it's not everyone who is the problem. It's me who is the problem and I find it extremely troubling because I mean this is not how I want to be. I only get like this sometimes but everytime I do it always leaves me in a lousy feeling. And I mean yes I understand I can change my ways but sometimes you can't. Something's are just a part of you and you can't change them and that's what bothers me the most. That's why I stayed up past midnight last night because I couldn't sleep. I could just sit there and think about my flaws in myself. Now that I have dumped this all on you all want to know the one reason that set off this terrible mood that turned into this terrible day? I was being a horrible girlfriend and getting sucked into my little phone games while I was spending the last moments with my boyfriend before I had to leave again. (He lives in sac so I don't see him all the time). And anyways he was sad over that. But that one thing just set off this huge thing which definitely goes to show I also have overreacting issues (which is another thing I do not think I can change). So ya that was my lovely day I had. Thanks for listening (reading-but listening sounds better to say).

Quality Over Quantity

It is so easy to get caught in that routine way of thinking, "Do this once a week." After all we do things like this all the time for certain classes and activites, because practice makes perfect. But the problem with this method is that it does not take into account the weeks you simply cannot fit in time to do your regular routine because of the out of ordinary events that take place. It is almost the same thing as a quota, and whether teachers like it or not...this is not a job, this is school. We are here to learn and I don't think it is morally right to base things off of quantity over quality. Sometimes I wish I went to a school with no grades because I honestly believe school has become about the letter on your transcipt rather than a quality education to better the world. I look at the letters that determine my future and I think..."these letters say absolutely nothing about who I am...except journalism...that A is earned because I work my ass off because I am passionate about journalism and it means a lot to me." So when I receive a NM for not blogging for 3 weeks, I think to myself...wow...I blogged before it was graded when I had more time...and then web editor responsibilities, print issue, writing for the web, planning to lead next years Flash Staff, and AP Tests overwhelmed me and I forgot to blog. I know I am not the only one who didn't come out of the blog cycle unscathed, and I know they don't deserve a grade drop either because I know how passionate and helpful they are to The Flash. I could care less about how it almost changed my grade to a B...what really bugs me is when I read my fellow classmates blogs and they are so well thought out, meaningful, and interesting and I think...these people deserve 100% they take their time and write such long and thoughtful blogs! But rather they are being judged on a quota number, "1 a week..." Which does not take into account whether they got busy trying to contribute to The Flash in other ways...and it bugs me knowing that it might have actually changed their grade to a B or even a C....I will always be a strong supporter of quality over quantity and next year I will make sure that people are graded by their efforts and not their numbers. The point of blogging is to practice our writing and to ask ourselves questions about the school, our lives, society, the world...Why? Because that is what good writers do, we observe what is going on around us. I observed that the blogs outraged people in class today and it made me question things. I encourage you to ask yourself...why do we constantly grade people by numbers rather than effort or quality? Is it because it is easier? And if so...why have grades become how we judge who people are? Some of the best people I have ever met are not 4.0 students...Some of the most successful people in the world did not have perfect SAT Scores. Why do people base who we are off numbers? Does that really set up our nation for success?

Disney (#9)

While I know that recently our homecoming theme was Disney (I think it was around 2010 or 2009 maybe?) I honestly don't care because Disney is the best. It's the best producer of animated films, has the best composers, the best singers, and it's also the best homecoming theme. I also think that the rising juniors got really lucky with our theme of Aladdin, which is one of my absolute favorite movies of all time. I can just imagine how adorable our float will be! The rising seniors also have great theme and all in all, I LOVE the idea of a Disney homecoming. I much prefer it to the Tim Burton one we had my freshman year (although I'm still a little I missed Harry Potter homecoming).

In anticipation, I plan to watch tons of Disney movies over the summer. Of course, I was probably going to do that anyways. C'est la vie.

(Also I'm watching the US Tour of Les Mis in 4 days and I cannot wait)

Thank You Pereira #`1

Ah, Pereira, he's such a great teacher. I kind of wish I took regular English so that I could've had him again, not that Padilla's a bad teacher at all. She's fabulous and charismatic, but so is Pereira. I know that most people were just devastated to hear that he was going to hand over some of the honors classes to Grace, and it must be even more devastating to hear that he's going to shift to freshman only.

Anyways, I'd like to take a chance to thank Pereira for something that doesn't really mean anything to him, but means so much to me. While in his classroom during break, I saw that he had old, lost, and unclaimed calculators on his whiteboard. I asked him if at the end of the year, should nobody have claimed it by then, if I could keep them. He not only let me take the stats calculator, but a TI-83, one I've been asking to get for 3 years now. Mine works perfectly, however mine is a 73, so it can't do much. And it sucks to not be able to do homework since some of the problems are specifically meant to be done on higher calculators, which mine can't even imagine doing.

I know to most of you, it sounds stupid, like it's only a calculator, but it's more than that to me. He was gracious enough to let me have them and was happy to let me have them. And although it's the end of the year and I only have one more math test final thing to go, I still have all of AP Stats next year. So THANK YOU PEREIRA! Not only to him, but to anybody who has lent or given me something. It really does calm my mind to know that some people aren't THAT self-centered. I hope that what I give my young ones will touch them as well, and hopefully they don't take what I give them for granted, whether it be life lessons (which I don't really give them) or advice for school.

Looking Forward to Homecoming (9?)

If you haven't heard from all of the excessive tweeting going on, next year's theme for homecoming will be DISNEY.

I don't think people understand how obsessed I am with Disney. I love all of the movies and I still go to watch new releases in the theaters. My favorite when I was younger was Sleeping Beauty. I loved Princess Aurora and her dress when it was pink. It's still probably in my top 5 or 10, but more because I love the animation and how it was designed to look like a traditional storybook.

For more recent movies, I've been obsessed with Tangled. I love it so much, the music and everything is all so cute. Wreck-it-Ralph was also great. It was so much better and more thoughtful than I expected.

Aladdin and Hercules are also in my top 5, mostly because of the songs. Aladdin has Prince Ali and Friend Like Me, and I'm getting carried away.

This blog has almost nothing to do with Homecoming...

BLOG NUMBER 6

TV watching is probably one of my favorite hobbies. And with Netflix, I never run out of anything to watch. BUT my two current favorite shows airing happen to be The Voice and The Bachelorette and they both fall on Monday night, which is a pain.

I cannot explain in words how incredibly better The Voice is compared to XFactor and ESPECIALLY American Idol. The talent is incredible and the coaches are charasmatic, funny and actually have credibility. On that note, I will be furious if Christina and CeeLo come back next year and re-replace Shakira and Usher. I will be heartbroken.

As for the contestants, Danielle Bradberry is hands down my favorite. Her voice is incredible and she is only sixteen!!!!! I also love country so I may be a little biased :)

When it comes to The Bachelorette, the lineup of men seems a little weak this year. I wasn't REALLY impressed with any of them. So, I hope I won't be too let down by the season.

Okay, I am done with this topic. On to my next blog...I only need two more...

College

So Berkeley got out a while ago, and my brother has been living at home ever since the AP tests ended. Its so weird to have him back. Other than the fact that he is my brother and I love him, the major bonus is that he can give me rides home from school instead of me walking home.

Its weird living with him again. I have to share my bathroom again, and that kind of sucks. But thank god he is home again, because he has helped me study for a math test and a Spanish test. Its a shame that he didn't get back in time for the AP world history test. I started to feel bad because I was only asking him for rides and help with homework, but then i realized the school year was almost over and that I could make it up to him over the summer.

He is renting an apartment in Berkeley with two other roommates. The apartment will be empty for the summer so maybe we can go visit the city in the summer. That will be fun.

Mostly its the fact that there will be no school. That will make all things well in the world.

BLOG POST NUMBER 5

I LOVE GLUTEN. Yep, it is true. I never really realized it until I decided to be stupid and go on a gluten free diet. I can't eat breads, pastas, crackers or basically anything. Basically everything has gluten in it, so I find myself not eating as much as I used to and now I have almost no energy at all. I am so fatigued. Also, I never thought it was humanly possible to crave bread so much. Seriously, I would kill for some Mac N Cheese right now.

On the bright side, I can still have Starbucks, french fries and Chipotle. So I will survive.

Blogging Frenzy #7

So right now, about half of our journalism class is busying themselves with blogging. I will be the first to admit that I myself am not the blogging type because I would much rather have a real life conversation about my life, but here I am, blogging. I think blogging has some good things to it - it can be really resourceful and it can help communicate. Since we are in such a technological age, it has become especially prominent. I know a lot of sports teams communicate via blogs because who buys newspapers anymore? It's faster and easier to go on the Internet and read than pay to have a newspaper brought to you. Not only that, but blogs can be fun to read. My mom loves her blogs - she follows so many and always tells me about them. It's a really good idea, just not for me.

Hipster Music # 2

Megan has converted me to Hipster music. There is this dude, Josh Garrels, You've probably never heard of him, and also Andy BaLcon, a blues singer. They are absolutely amazing and beautiful and great singers. I started a station on Pandora, and have found so many other unknown artists that are wonderful. Megan is starting to turn me into a hipster . . . 

BLOG NUMBER 4

Kids are ungrateful. Simple as that. I will admit that I used to be one of those narrow minded individuals who thought my life was coming to an end because Pretty Little Liars forgot to record or maybe because my parents wouldn't lengthen my curfew by an extra hour. It is amazing how over the course of 48 hours your entire life can take a complete U-Turn on your prospective on each and everything thing. This past month, it has sickened me on how greedy and materialistic high school students are. I see tweets and Facebook posts every day about how "life is so hard" because you can't decide which college to go to or because you do not have enough money to buy an iPhone 5. You are alive. You are healthy. Your family is wealthier than about 80% of the entire world. BE APPRECIATIVE.

One month ago my mom was diagnosed with type 4 brain cancer, also known as Glioblastoma. It is unsure how much longer she will have to live. If I have learned anything, it is to spend as much time with your family as possible. And if everyone close to you is healthy, be thankful. THAT is what you should care about.

People #2

The other day I was at the store trying to get a shirt down from the top shelf.  So, I went to get the person with the big hook that gets the shirts down and she told me to wait a minute so I said no problem and went and stood by the shirt again.  Ten minutes later she shows up with the hook and rudley asked what one I wanted.  I was already mad and I didn't want to make a scene so I shook it off and pointed.  Then she gave the shirt and walked away with a dirty look.  So when I went up to the cashier I saw that it was the same lady and she was still rude.  So I yelled at her and told her to get a clue and learn to be hospitable towards custumers.  I hate it when people do that stuff

Number 8

Anatomy tests are the worst things in the entire world. They are just as hard as my AP science tests and quite honestly I feel like a lot of the time they are unfair. All of the questions are super hard and not only that but he purposely tries to trick you. There are countless questions with the options "all of the above" or "just a&C" and sometimes both. I mean it is one thing to have a couple of those kind of questions but there are just so many. Plus our teacher always says "only study the study guide that's everything on the test." LIAR! The study guide contained maybe half of the information and the rest was in the actual textbook so don't tell me to just study the study guide, I will do more work but just don't mislead me! Our class average was a 74%, barely passing, shouldn't that tell the teacher something?!

Also we began to dismember our cats today. They do not even look like cats anymore but odd looking alien creatures. Anyways now it is time to dispose of them and to do this apparently we have to take bits and pieces off the cat every class period so not as to overwhelm the trash cans with feral cat remains. Now all that remains of our kitty's lower half is a stub. Meow.

Yearbook 8

This whole class period, our pod has been looking at the 2013 yearbook, and I'm so excited to get mine. I love looking through the pictures of everyone and all the memories, but my favorite part is having my friends sign the back pages.

Looking through old yearbook signatures makes me so nostalgic and brings back so many great memories. Even though I don't talk to some of the people who signed it in the past, their note to me brings back those memories of friendship.

Last year there were some typos regarding my name, and misquoting, but hopefully things will go well this time. I like to spend time looking over every page so I'll be on the look out for pictures of myself, because that is one of the most fun parts of getting it.

I seriously cannot wait to get mine, they look fantastic. 

Blogging

I think I have blogged enough to raise my grade, or at least I hope so.  I have always wondered if anyone actually reads these.  If you do, please comment. 

kitties

I am hoping that no one will actually read this because it makes me sound like a crazy cat lady. I have two cats, one black one and one calico one. We got the black one in 2006, and she started out really nice. As soon as we got the calico one, our black cat turned feral. Well, kind of. She kept hissing and spitting at our new calico kitten. She would also disappear for days at a time. Then, she would run home and eat SOOO much and purr and drool to her heart's content. And that was fine.

Now, our calico is much bigger and stronger than our black cat. And she wants revenge. She'll sit on top of a chair or annoyingly close to our black cat, and just stare at her. The black cat gets so ANGRY and and just hisses and growled and its pathetic. And our calico is like "haha, im bigger than you now, suck it up." And then she'll chase her away. And I feel bad for the black cat, but really it is her fault in the first place.

We had a short experiment with a dog. She was a stray that my dad's work friends found. She was cute, and it turns out, quite devoid of a brain. God she was dumb, and annoying, and had bad breath. Well, she was a mutt/stray. Oh well. Anyway, our cats were temporarily united under a common enemy. They would sit on top of the kitchen chairs and bat at the dog as she would walk underneath. That poor, dumb dog. How i hated her. She had turned me off from small lap dogs. Now I want a big dog. But our bipolar cat would probably definitely run away. Oh, the struggle.

Decades Project #6

So pretty much every junior is obligated to do the "Decades" project for US History. For APUS, Mrs. Benzel is making sure we have a party! My group's decade is the 80s...which is actually pretty fun (not to mention easy). We're dressing up in workout clothes and long skirts and punk-ish things, all while bringing Cool Ranch Doritos and Little Caesars, which came out in the 80s. Our historical event was the Challenger Explosion, and after a lot of research, it's made me really sad. On top of that, we're doing a bunch of hip movies and music at the time. It's due tomorrow, so I'm pretty excited!

College

My brother is a senior this year and he is leaving for college in like, 3 weeks.  It seems so weird becuase he is going to be gone so soon.  He applied for summer semester at BYU provo and he made it.  Gonna miss him, but I am really proud of him. :')

Number 8: Yearbook

I absolutely love this year's yearbook! Last year was pretty good, but this year it is absolutely gorgeous. The cover is amazing and the spreads and colorful and varied, and it is well worth the $80 I paid (because of course I bought it last week).

I love getting yearbooks at the end of the year. There's something really cool at being able to see the memories of an entire school year condensed into one amazing year. In particular, our yearbook does such a great job of making the memories look so pretty. I love, love, love the spreads.

The best part is probably signing it. It just feels like a great conclusion to the end of the year, and a rite of passage of sorts. It is an amazing way to end the year, and I'd like to thank the editors and yearbook staff for making such a great book!

CSF

Ok, so I am in CSF and we are required to do two projects a semester.  This semester I have done none.  Oops.  I need to sign up to volunteer at the Senior Awards Night because it counts for two projects, but there is limited room.  I hope I get a spot.  Crossing my fingers.

Growing up #5

So my brother Anthony turned 4 years old today. I honestly can't believe how time flies...its going by way to fast! I remember when he was just a little baby, and now he's going to be going to school next year! It really makes you think about how you spend your time...I am out of the house a lot with my activities but I'm learning that it's just as important to be at home and watch my siblings grow up as it is to pursue my adventures. Honestly, I can't imagine myself going away from home in a little over a year...I'm such a homebody so it's going to be interesting. However, I think that I'm going to have to grow up at some point and college is the best place to do that. Until then, I'm going to enjoy my junior summer before I even have to think about college!

Cheerios

Has anyone else ever noticed that there are like, 50 different kinds of Cheerios?!?  Every time I go to the store I try and count all the different kinds.  There are:

Fruity Cheerios
Yogurt Cheerios
Chocolate Cheerios
Cinnamon Cheerios
Honey Cheerios
Regular Cheerios
Frosted Cheerios
Banana Cheerios
Strawberry Cheerios
Banana Nut Cheerios
Nutty Cheerios

Ok, so maybe not 50..but there are a lot.

Number 6- LOS ANGELES

So I really want to move to Southern California at some point in my life. I was born down there and moved up to Rocklin when I was five, so I still have a lot of family down there that I rarely get to see.

I just really love the whole atmosphere and vibe down in LA. The beach, all the different people, the sights and endless opportunities.

Although I really wanted to go to a school down in LA for college, some things just don't work out, and I'll have to live there at another point in my life. But, hey, I still have graduate school to think about, and maybe I'll end up going down there after all.

Pets #1

Do people's pets match their personality or their looks? I believe they do.  The other day I was driving and looked over and saw this poodle and the owner who was sitting next to it looked the exact same.  She had poofy hair just like her dog.  It is interesting to see who picks what for their pet or what kind of pet for themselves.

MASH #4

So this year I decided to do MASH tutoring because I thought I would be good at helping kids learn more. However, I learned that a lot of the time kids don't necessarily want help, they just need a good example. So after leaving my frustration behind, I decided to talk more to the kids and it was actually pretty fun. They need a little push and sometimes I was able to help them beyond school. If anything, they taught me stuff, like patience and learning how to teach a little better. I really enjoyed tutoring and I'm going to do it next year.

Their Eyes Were Watching God # 1

Their Eyes were Watching God is actually a really good book. I was kind of skeptical in the beginning but it has grown on me. First off, there is so much symbolism and hidden messages and the like, it blows my mind! I love a book where I can read it over and over again and still find new things.

My class is also really good at seminars, so I obtain even more information about the book.

I need to read a book for extra credit, just to insure my "A"

Don't Love School Anymore. :(

When I was a kid I loved school so much.  I loved to learn and I even loved homework.  In elementary school and middle school they make learning fun and stress free, but in High School any part of the heart that still has a love for learning is pulled out and crushed to a pulp.  Although I still love to learn, I have no love for school.  Thanks public education. :)

BLOG NUMBER 3

Well, I thought I had a locked in "A" for this class since I film The Show every other week and then I am also the design editor for our monthly print issue. As of a few minutes ago, I was informed that we were supposed to be blogging for these last 8 weeks and that the blog grades were currently entered into the system.

Uhh....yeah.....

That single handily demolished my grade from a solid 94 to an 80. That is ridiculous. Six simple paragraphs of my constant complaining makes the whopping 14% difference in my final Journalism grade. So for whoever thought this was a good idea, here are my six missing blogs. I hope you enjoy reading my my miserable and sarcastic remarks about everything.

Last days of school

So we have less than two weeks of school left. So much stuff is crammed into the last days. On Monday alone, I have exams or speeches in every single one of my classes. Oh, and AR. I feel terrible complaining about AR because I have had the whole quarter to read, but I procrastinate. As always. Who doesn't? and really, non fiction.

I hate non-fiction. I get that its pretty much all we read in college, but making us read boring books about Olympians or poor people in Africa seems a bit much. Isn't the whole point of this "forced" reading to make students read more and love doing it? Its not exactly the right track to go on. 10th grade has taught me to hate reading. I look at it with dread. Hopefully, I can use this summer to catch up on my fiction and erase my HATE of forced, non-fiction, reading. I mean, isn't that what textbooks are for?

We read literature in class. Classics like To Kill a Mockingbird. And 1984. Those are famous and say impotent things about society and people and stuff. It promotes discussion and learning. We are not, in fact, picking short and very boring books to power through to get our stupid AR points. I know a straight -A student who got a B first semester because he didn't do AR. He was dumb not to, but still. it SUCKS. And I am done with it.

One of the main reasons I took advanced English with Padilla freshman year was for the no AR. I hope to god that there is no more AR ever, in my life. On a happier note, I ran the last timed mile of my entire life in PE a couple of weeks ago. Yay for doing sports and no PE. Okay thats about it.

Blog Post 7

I had water polo last night and man, am I tired. I have not done water polo for the past few months and that is not a smart choice on my part. The practice might only be for two hours, but it is the longest two hours ever!

The coaches push you so hard! This may be a conditioning camp but we do need a breather once in a while during the practices. At least I know that I will be totally conditioned by the time the school season rolls around.

At least it is only three times a week instead of five like it is for school. Only two more months...

Number 7

Yayyyyy I'm so excited I finally got a new job! I got hired at Panera last week and I cannot wait to start, partly because I need money and partly because new things are always exciting. I'm actually getting paid a little less than what I made at Sunsplash but the trade off is its year round and air conditioned so I 100% do not mind. The downside is my very first shift is during graduation. I was so upset about it! Literally it starts at 5 and ends at 10 so no chance of me getting there. I was so looking forward to going and supporting my senior friends! I could have asked to change but I just felt that for my first shift at my brand new job that would be pushing it. Oh well, at least I'll be off for the after parties.

so here we go #2

i think I'm going to watch a disney movie when I get home. roll your eyes, scoff, whatever. you are never too old to enjoy disney movies. they give off a happy vibe that i have been missing in my life for a while now that school has taken over everyone's lives. I'm not quite sure what type of movie i'm going to watch but i think its going to be road to el dorado, hercules, or something along the lines of those bunches. everyone is freaking out about blogging because it brought people's grades down to B's and maybe even C's. I'm one of the many people that have the annoying B. I'm not going to go on and on about this becasue people are blogging about blogging about how annoying bloggning is and what its doing to their grades right now.
my geometry teacher played disney pandora in her class today which is what made me want to watch a disney movie. Oh gosh. Disney Movie, Read a book, or Walking Dead. gahhhh. the choices. I'm not sure. have you ever tried out this app called Whale Trail? Its sooooo addictive and i love it. it passes time. I think its a childrens game but at the same time i'm not so sure. anyway though. try it out. its free and fun. free fun! oh gosh. corny. lol. k. bai. (two more blogs to go!)

Last week of School

My GPA is everything to me.   I have worked so hard for the past few months and there is no way I am giving up now.  I know so many people who just give up the last few weeks of school, but I can't afford to do that. I have worked too hard to give up now.

MASH

So today is my last day of MASH tutoring and I'm actually kind of sad that it's over. At first, I volunteered to tutor because I thought it was going to be a lot more instruction than it actually is. Instead, I learned that you have to lead more by example. I would walk around and ask if anyone needed help and they would say no...so I started to talk to them more and by them becoming more comfortable with me, they started to open up and let me help them with their homework. I actually really enjoyed getting to know some of my peers and helping them make their situation a little better. If anything, they taught me how to have some patience and to become a better teacher. I think that I'm going to tutor again next year because I really enjoyed it.

The Homestretch

My busiest month of the year is May, and it's finally over. Now I have pretty much one week of school left, and I am pumped. my grades are good, so no scrambling. Passing all concepts. Feeling good, and ready to be a senior :)

So I am extremely awkward, and my awkwardness decided to show up yesterday at the worst possible time. THE WORST TIME.

AWKWARD.

Number 6

I know I just posted about this but I am so pumped for next season! Yesterday was our first official meeting and seeing everyone's face again made me so happy. It was a little weird because the seniors who were a big chunk of our team were not there but overall we are back together! As usual, Pereira went on about pre-run rituals and discussing basic mileage but he also talked about the "journey" and Heidi. He talked about how looking back on his career as both a high school and college runner he doesn't focus on the medals and the wins but rather the journey it took him to get there and the bonds he made with his teamates.

He also discussed Heidi which was expected but he talked about how this season we need to focus on her legacy. Which is basically just looking on the bright side and avoiding unneccesary drama and conflict. I totally agree with him. Last year there was some issues towards the end of the season and looking back it was just so petty and unneccesary. At our Woodbridge trip we were all so close and though most of us are still friends and still close, a couple key members of our "varsity" squad have felt or acted left out and like they do not want to be a part of the whole. Personally, I feel like the entire team just needs to move past everything negative that has happened. Whether it be last Cross or this past Track season none of it really matters and I cannot wait to get back to the point where we are all one again.

Number 5

As everyone is well aware of, senior rally is tomorrow and though I am not a senior I am so sad! This is my third senior rally and I have never cried and often found it odd how sad people got, but now that I am actually good friends with the people graduating I totally get it. I mean they are leaving us! One of my best friends Mckayla is graduating this year and I do not even know what I am going to do without her. Seriously, my life is going to be so much more dull and lackluster without her at practice and at our meets. She is apart of our little running crew and without her a piece of us is missing. Yesterday we had our first cross country meeting of the year and obviously she was not there and that killed us! I mean it is going to be so odd without her telling us about her terrifying and disturbing dreams on long run days. What shall become of us?!

Just kidding.... kind of, but really it is depressing. Especially because this is the class right above us so for our whole high school career we have looked up to them in a way it is quite sad. I feel like being the one left behind is the worse. Obviously I am not in a relationship with the Class of 2013 but they are all going off the experience new things while all of us are left in lowly old Rocklin. Sigh*

On another note I am really excited to be a senior!

Now I know #1

I stared at this blank page on blogger for a long period of time and I didn't know what i was going to blog about. I figured it out.
Ok.
Hopefully I won't get glared at for this but a group of individuals started arguing and I don't want to say I found it amusing, but It made me think for a second. If your mad about something and you tell that certain someone, but hinting about what they did, how are you going to resolve the situation? The other individual, the targeted one, didn't quite remember what and why the othe individual was mad. I've been in this situation before and I think you just have to be straight with each other and Specifically say why your mad at someone then you will never figure anything out and tensions will stay. Anyway though. Just a thought.
Hope it gets all worked out for them.
A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders today. I gave my English presentation and I'm kind of floating on a cloud because I'm so happy its over with and now I only have to make my AR goal, which isn't really that hard. I enjoy reading and now that I actually have time for it, is pure bliss to me. :)
This is going to sound weird, but I'll forever be facinated with people. People are amazing. People are sometimes (but really most oftenly) annoying, weird and as for 'Murica, stupid on occasions. But what people don't know is all the great things about themselves. Everyone is great. Now this is going to be really really really corny and I don't know who reads these other than Nichols but I'm going off on a really unorganized rant right now about self empowerment type things and major major run on sentences. oh blogging. :) anyway though. my mind is ADD sometimes. for people reading this that have ADD that was not not directed towards you. okay. I think of the litle things: Your heart for example beats tirelessly every single waking moment of your life until you die. I think thats amazing!! Seriously! just think about all that energy! this is the weirdest blog i've done in my life. my foot just touched the sticky mouse trap type thing... ew. good thing nothings there anyway. Also, another thing that happens just naturally, you blink all day long without even noticing it half the time! now you noticed though because I mentioned it. maybe your counting your blinks or something along the lines of that. haha. psych. ugh I think i'm done now. I thought this was going somewhere but it didn't work out. my fingers are getting tired. okay...gosh I never know how to end a blog.
End?
done?
fin.

Content

I have about a million things to do, but I'm okay with that. Slowly, the year is coming to a draw. This week, I have my speech in English and the then World History SAT IIs, and I'll be done at last. Although presently, these two tasks have taken over my life, I'm actually quite content with the way things are going now. My grades are where I need them to be. I'm making steady progress on both my speech and studying. I just found out I got an amazing internship I've coveted for a long time (and truly did not expect to get). I'm so excited for my classes next year (especially AP US, AP Gov't, and Journalism!) and this Sunday, I'll be watching the US tour of Les Miserables with two of my best friends (which I have been waiting for since December!). Oh, and then my birthday on Tuesday, which I am definitely looking forward to!

All in all, I thoroughly enjoyed this school year. I met some great new people, learned a ton, and loved some of my classes (in particular, I really enjoyed AP World which may seem strange but it was interesting). But I'm excited for summer to start. I'll be just as busy as I am now, but I look forward to the change of routine and trying something new. I'm happy with the way this year played out, and thoroughly content.

Seven, six, five, four, three, two, one...

Only seven more days left, this is a three day weekend, I only have to go three days the last week of school, and graduation. So a pretty amazing last two weeks! And that Saturday, I leave for Britain! It'll be weird going by myself, so I'll just memorize a map of the airport or something.

So today I get to see Liz! Which is pretty awesome because I literally have not seen her since Christmas. School's annoying like that sometimes.

Right now, I'm a little ahead of myself, but I'm throwing away old paperwork and stuff I don't need, but for some teachers that's too risky just in case, so I have stacks of bio notes and US outlines in my room, and not this Wednesday, but next Wednesday, they are going in the trash! Best feeling in the world.

I can pull through these next seven days... probably.

Water Polo

Water Polo just started up again on Tuesday and I am sooooo tired! I didn't do swim this season because I had prior commitments, so I am out of shape for water polo. They were kind of easy on us on Tuesday, so I thought they were going to ease us into the season. But NO, they decided to push us like crazy on Thursday.

Even though the season seems like it will be a hard one, I am super happy it started again. I missed it. It's crazy how much I like it now and before 9th grade, I had never heard of water polo. My life has definitely changed thanks to water polo, and thankfully, it was for the better.

Now, all I need to focus on is the last few days of school and then I can focus on water polo for the next few months.

Bells vs. Thunder

Mr. Nichols is responsible for my current boyfriend. Yes that is right, Mr. Nichols, if you are reading this you are a matchmaker (although Aubrey did most of the talking) It's weird but somehow I met a photojournalist nerd at the Journalism convention in San Francisco and now we have been dating for a month. His name is Raymond and well, everybody loves Raymond. So basically I write the stories and he adds the photo so it was a match made in journalistic heaven (except for the fact his photos are for yearbook...not journalism) Anyways, he goes to a jesuit all boys college prep school in San Jose called Bellermine and the more I learn about it the more terribly jealous I become. Of course I feel lucky with the opportunity I am given here at Rocklin High but when I hear about their school having screenwriting and film production classes I start to drool because it sounds so nice. Although they have to apply to get in and pay $17,000 a year so in that regard I am not jealous. So I got this whole attitude of comparing our schools to each other and as soon as I visited their website I was like, they win. It is so beautiful ad organized and unique and a little part of me died when I compared it to how crazy ours is. I know we are redoing it by having someone do it for us but I am just worried it will still not be nearly where there website is at and it makes me a little melancholy. Where is our public school pride? Can we please outshine his school! I'm revamping journalism next year and my brother and I are working on making our new website. Bring it Bellermine, it's on.

Heart Healthy

So, as some of you know, over spring break I had a health scare I guess you would call it. I had extremely bad chest pain and rapid heart palpitations which led to two trips to the emergency room, an ambulance ride, three trips to a regular doctor, and then finally an appointment with a cardiologist.

It was honestly one of the most difficult weeks of my life. Laying around the house doing absolutely nothing but think about it was so draining. I tried not to think about how awful I felt and how scary it was, because I know that there are people out there that have it worse, and that more than likely it would go away soon, but  it was still extremely hard to do that. It was also such a difficult time because we had just lost a student, and friend dear to so many of us.

Nonetheless, I was so lucky to have such loving and supportive friends that constantly checked up on me, and came to visit me. Their prayers and well wishes meant the world to me.

So, when I went to the cardiologist a few weeks ago, he said that I probably have this thing (I forget the name) where your heart just starts to go fast sometimes, and that the best way to stop it is to gag yourself by shoving your finger down your throat-- crazy, I know.

Today I went back for a heart ultrasound and the doctor said that it looks good. He said the rapid heart beat is a normal thing, and basically that my heart is perfectly healthy, and if I ever experience the rapid heart beat again I should do the gagging thing. Anyways, this is such a relief as it has been such an unknown all this time as to what was exactly wrong. So, yay! No more thinking about the what if it's this... And I feel as healthy and more alive as ever!

Stress (aka my usual blogging topic)

I feel like all I do on the blog is rant about how stressed I am, and I'm not one to break tradition so I suppose I'll continue this trend. I thought that after my AP test (which actually went surprisingly well) I'd finally be able to relax after so. much. studying. But no, it turns out that I have a ton of things to finish before summer.

Of course, first and foremost is my speech for Language Arts, which I'm hoping I can memorize in time. Then, the day after I have the SAT for World History. I actually really enjoy history, and didn't think the AP test was too bad, but after reading various threads on College Confidential I'm beginning to get a little worried as the test is very heavily focused on details. Then, I have to read, finish, and test (well) on an AR book which I have approximately four days to read. Oh, plus there's a chemistry test on my birthday. Joy.

In the midst of that, though, I do have some awesome things to look forward to, mainly seeing the US tour of Les Miserables with Leah and my friend Holly and my aforementioned birthday. Also, there's the tiny detail of summer being mere days away.

To be honest, I wish school was a little longer, just so I at least a little more time to accomplish everything I need to get done. I feel as though most of this year has been relatively decent in regards to stress, with a sudden onslaught of a great deal of stress all at once. I wish I could say that I was going to relax all summer, but what with a summer job, volunteering, taking French 3H over the summer and doing summer homework for 3 AP classes, I don't think that'll be the case :). But that's alright, I do like staying busy. I just don't like have 1,000 things to do in such a short time frame.

Summer~

I'm so excited for summer. Usually I enjoy all the relaxing in June, but then end up getting bored by July. This year, I'm determined to enjoy the entire summer with my friends and make the most out of it, which sounds super cliche(how do you add accents to letters on blogger?), but still. 

This summer, I'll be spending my Friday mornings from 6am to 10:30am working at Origin Coffee and Tea, which I'm oddly excited about. I really need community service hours, and the cause is amazing. 

I'll also have a lot of summer homework to do because I'm planning on challenging French 3(if I don't give up mid-summer), and will be taking four AP's. I know that by the time I actually start on all this homework, I'll hate it, but for right now, I'm weirdly excited about it all. 

Besides all that work, I am planning on doing some relaxing, and spending lots of time with my friends. I just have so many things to look forward to.

As for now, I have lots of work to get done for school. I have to start working on my career speech and I still haven't finished making up everything I missed when I was in Japan. I also have to meet my AR goal, which I haven't even started working on. The next two weeks will be crazy busy and stress filled, but hopefully it'll all be worth it...

(How many times did I use the word "Summer" in this post? Maybe I'll make that my stereotypical blog post title.)

Unreal

Guys.... we have.... about 2 weeks left. Seriously. I have known this for a while now but it's only just hit me. Tomorrow, then 4 days, and then 5 days again. THAT'S NOT EVEN 2 FULL WEEKS!!! Just ten days of school left. And I am soo not ready. Don't get me wrong, I am super ecstatic for summer. But I have soo much to do in so little time. (nothing really school related) but I am not used to feeling rushed.

I had no AP's this year so I can't really complain, but of the things I did have this year, which weren't school related at all, I still feel like it's March and it's hard coming to grips with the fact that it is now almost June. People said that time would fly and I happen to think it's on a jet right now. But that's a good thing right? That soon it will be time for me to have a senior year and then leave Rocklin and go to college? I don't even have a job yet and I am supposed to be applying for college in just 3-5 months. This is not matching up.

But at least it is almost the end of school. I am on a downhill coaster that is taking me faster than I originally thought it would. But that's a good thing, because it gets me where I want to go faster.

Oh, and I did that whole 5k thing today. Not as bad I thought it would be. I definitely could have jogged the whole thing. Guess I know what other activities I'll be doing during summer right??

LIBRARY CLOSED?!?!?!

I was so disappointed when I walked into the library the other day and saw that we could no longer check out books.  I have been reading The Mortal Instruments series and I just finished the second book Sunday night.  I went in Monday morning to return the next two books and check out the third, and was so sad when I discovered that I would not be able to read the third book.  I was hoping to start it that day, and now I will have to wait until I can go to the Rocklin Public Library. :(

XC 2013

It is almost my favorite time of year again! Cross country season! WHOOOOO! After a tumoltuous track season I cannot wait to get back out there with my team to have a FUN  season. I don't even know how to describe my excitement right now, I love every single person on the team and it is just exponentially better than track. Plus, we have a super strong varsity girls team this year and we have a really good shot at a great season. Last year we had most of the same girls but we had a mishap towards the end of the season with our lineup and just generally lost focus but not this year. I am 100% motivated and pumped and anxious and every other positive adjective in the English language. Summer practice here we come!

over

Well...the softball season is over. I know I only blog about softball so I might as well continue my tradition of softball blogging.

Last night was the end to our incredible season. We took third place in sections (to be honest, I don't know how far the range of teams actually is) and to be honest, I'm a little disappointed. We should have ended our season in much better way. We beat ourselves, we didn't get beat. Next year, both Pleasant Grove and Vintage better watch out because our team is out for blood.

However, despite my bitter feelings toward the conclusion of the season, we have to celebrate the season that we had. My coach said it best: we accomplished more than any Rocklin softball team ever has, and we have to take pride in that. We sent our seniors off with a great season, especially because they went through the most drama in their four years of playing at our school.

Honestly, I can't wait until next January when we start up again. This season meant a lot to me and I'm glad that I have one more season to share with my softball teammates. This season made me love softball again.

A busy week

This weekend I won 17 and under Champion at this one series I was competing in. It was pretty awesome! Romeo is such a good horse, and when we win these awards, I can't help but remember how far we have come and how much training we have accomplished.

This week I have county fair, so . . . see ya on the flip side.

Beatles Love

I am obsessed with the Beatles. I am pretty sure I could just sit and "like" Beatles pictures all day while listening to Beatles music. I had almost forgotten how much I loved them until I finally uploaded all of the Beatles music I had to my iPhone. Listening to "Martha My Dear" while casually walking to school is always an amazing way to start my morning. Not to mention listening to "Blackbird" on the hot walk home. Just all their songs are awesome. They all have great sound and awesome lyrics. "Let It Be" is just genius and so is "A Day In A Life." "Revolution" just makes me so happy because it is a great feeling for the time period and nice relaxing songs like "Mother Nature's Son" and "Norwegian Wood" just sing me to sleep, man. And all of their love songs are the best love songs ever. I mean "Here, There, and Everywhere," "For You Blue," and "I Want To Tell You" are just great witty, little love songs. And I love each Beatle :D! John is just John Lennon I think that's enough said. Paul is just a little cutie and I love his voice range (especially in "Hey Jude.") Ringo is also such a little cutie and he is just such a lovable dork. BUT GEORGE. Oh, George Harrison is my love. I just love how quiet he is and he is such a Dark Horse. I love it :))))))))) and I think he is the best looking out of all of them. He also got into all that Indie stuff first and I totally dig that ;) Anyways that was my little gush about the Beatles. Sorry I just couldn't contain it.

Transplantation

I really enjoy the drive down to Berkeley. It's not too long, the scenery varies nicely, the roads are decently maintained, and you never lose touch with civilization. But a lot seems to change from when you get onto I-80 in Rocklin and when you exit in Berkeley. The weather, the politics, the air quality, etc. This is especially true when your purpose in making the journey is to move there.

I've lived in Rocklin roughly as long as I've been able to reliably form long-term memories, which means that in terms of living arrangements and society, suburbia is what I'm familiar with. Obviously, Berkeley is not suburbia.

This will be interesting. I'm going to be living with a randomly assigned roommate in a dormitory surrounded by people I don't know - I have a pretty nice set of upperclassmen friends at Berkeley, but will hardly know any of the freshman there, although the Berkeley Facebook app is remarkably useful in that regard. Still, I feel like I am the equivalent of some peasant in Europe taking a ship to 1800's New York City. Complete transplantation.

As is frequently the case with me, I have no idea what emotions I should be experiencing. This seems like it could be rather exciting, but I'm told that the process can be terrifying. I know that it is going to be a lot of hard work, from classes that are really challenging to extracurricular activities to understanding how dorm laundromats work. I am assured that I will have a lot of fun as well, though, college being college.

Move in day is in 3 months, 5 days. Here I go.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Oh my gosh. I think this is the worst i've EVER had Summer fever. Seriously. In comparasin to last summer, I had nothing planned. And this summer i have loads of things planned and I'm traveling and doing water polo and its just going to be absolutely amazing! I'm so thankful of all the things I'm going to do over the summer and for my parents to allow me to do them. I'm going to Italy. I'm bursting with excitement and this will be the best summer of my life. I dont really like school right now. But enough of that
My softball team (not for this school) won first place in the championships yesterday! I'm so proud of them. I couldn't play because my finger is still fractured. :/ Oh well. i went on a bike ride yesterday for like 4 miles or so and even though to some people thats really easy I WAS SO TIRED. I haven't rode my bike for like 5 years and It was so hard and my legs hurt! Random thoughts. My mind is blank. I'm about to eat a Chicken Caesar Salad. Yum. Okay. Hold on I need to prepare it. God this blog is boring. Im sure people wont' even read it. spel,ling errors ahhhh. ahhhh. merrrr. I have a shirt that says Meh: Element of Indifference. I showed that to my chemistry teacher and she gave me a confused look and said: "I dont get it." Okay well you are....just....ugh. My English speech is in 9 days. oh boy.

Laundry

I haven't thought about this too much, but last class I was talking to someone about doing laundry. Why? Because we were discussing the differences between men and women in Pereira's class. So of course you can't have this discussion without mentioning the typical female role of doing the laundry, right?

Well, they told me their parents did all there laundry for them, which took me to a flashback to another time where a friend said they didn't do their own laundry. And at first, I thought it was cool because if my mom did my laundry, then my life would be a little easier, but my sister argued that I'm 17. 17! An age where I am MORE than capable of doing my own laundry. And now, I completely agree.

I think it's awkward and somewhat weird to hand dirty laundry to your parents. Yes, it would shave some time off my schedule, but I don't know anymore. Parents need to take a freakin' stand and just be like "Wash your own clothes!"

Anyways, three-ish weeks left. I feel like the lady from the Yellow Wallpaper. I need to get out of this place. I'm way too ready for senior year.

Braces

Braces, one of the many things teenagers dread. They have good reason to, mostly because they hurt. And besides braces are just a hassle. I’m seventeen years old and I still have my braces on. At this point they are annoying and just plain ugly. I’m tired of going to the orthodontics just to have the people poke my mouth to death. Believe it or not lady, but when you continuously jab a sharp tool into my gums, it does kind of hurt, weird I know (not). And on top of everything my orthodontics already gave me, I now have a new rubber band in the middle of my teeth. It’s just one diagonal band in the front of my teeth. Uhhh… I can’t wait until I get them off. But on the plus side I finally got to choose a color to go on my brackets.

Typical Summer post

Have you ever had so many plans that your brain exploded? Because that is basically what I'm experiencing. I have this crazy Summer ahead of me and I am so ready but at the same time so not. Where has the time gone? Because I still feel like a 13 year old and I am almost 17 what is happening. Next year is going to epic but I just don't know what to do till then, I feel like everything is in overdrive! It is quite insane and can someone please just stop me to smell the roses once in while? Thank you it is much appreciated.

Make the Most

There is less than 3 weeks left until graduation, so crazy!

It's so strange to think that I'll never be coming back to school with the same people ever again. It's somewhat sad, but also exciting to know that we are all going through this together, as so many before us have as well.

We only get to experience the 'end of school' feeling so many times, so we might as well embrace it!

Have fun, make sure that your grades are in order, reflect on the year, tell your friends how much they mean to you, and get ready for summer!

Creative Spurt/Movie Excitement/Book :)

This last part of the month has been giving me this really big urge to write stuff. Like, I will literally be doing homework and all of a sudden, this really great plot line or verse to a poem hits and I'll just be sitting there wondering where it came from. (of course I'll write it down) but I really want to know where in the heck it came from. Usually, it comes from the rain, which means that I'm somewhat tough out of luck most of the year. But this month has been just like a big cloud that, once in a while, will rain and allow me to soak up some good stuff. Don't get me wrong, I am enjoying this while I can, but it just makes me curious to know where exactly inspiration comes from. It's different for everyone (yes yes yes, knew that already), but it's still interesting to find out what triggers the creative part of my mind, rather than just guessing at what will get me to write and what will make me want to write.

Anyways, the newest Star Trek, Star Trek: Into Darkness, is AMAZING! Go and see it. (Maybe I'll do a review on it?? Hmmm) I really haven't been into Star Trek, although my whole entire family has been into it for years and these new movies have been a real kick-starter for me to join the and become a Trekkie. Plus, the plot line in the movie was really well done (spoken from a great friend of mine which is actually a HUGE Trekkie and they said that it was close to what it was sorta based off of).
But I also enjoyed the movie for it's actors. Now, I am a movie goer, just for the movie itself on some occasions. (Most of them really). But on some occasions, I actually go to see one just because a certain actor is in it. Doesn't mean I don't have interest in the movie itself, just means that I got hooked on it FROM that actor. (and in this case, it was partially because of one of my favorite actors, B.C.- watch the film and you'll find out who that is :] )

oh, and on top of this whole excitement, I finished reading one of my now favorite books- Graceling (I SHALL do a review on this because I just loved it so and you people need to read it~!) Basically, I bought this one a while back and I just now got to it and it was totally worth the waiting.

Yeeeahahhhhhh.... and all this has been going on through my head in just this week. Thankfully, we have only about 2 or so weeks left and THEN IT'S SUMMER AND THEN FRANCE AND FREEDOM (oh wait, I have AP hw. darn it.) Well, I'll still have senior year to look forward to!!

It's All Down Hill From Here

I am finally done with AP World.  No more outlines, late night studying, or stressing.  It is the best feeling ever, but then I think about how I am taking two AP classes next year and get depressed.

Summer is so close and I really just want school to end now.  But now I have to focus on my career speech... But I'm not in advanced this year so I'm not too worried.

Summer can't come fast enough... It's almost time for my trip to Cancun!

One Day

My parents (specifically my mom) don't want me to go college far away. I get that they don't want me to leave them, but that is what college is about. It's about leaving the nest to branch out, gain a higher education, and find out who you are, without your parents constantly being there.

The furthest I would go would be University of Montana Western (Yeah, I know that is pretty far) 

The thing that has me hesitant to go there though, is that I would not be able to take my horse. I want to take Romeo with me where ever I go, as long as it's not to far. They really want me to go to Fresno State and tryout to be on their NCAA Equine Team, but I don't really like the college, or Fresno in general. I've started looking up out of state colleges that offer NCAA Equine teams (Fresno is the only one in California). 

If I go to Sac State for example, they still want me to live at home. It's not like I can't get a job and pay for my dorm or apartment. I'd probably end up sharing, anyways. I think they want me to stay home so I can keep helping around the house. My brother won't do anything with out being prodded like a stubborn cow. So that leaves me to do a lot of extra work, which I am more than happy to do, but when I leave I don't think my brother will step up to take over those jobs. 

I don't know . . . I just want to go places and experience living on my own during college, like any other teenager/young adult.

My Yesterday

The dance show is tonight! I'm so excited to honestly...get it over with. I look so good with makeup on it's bad and what's worse is that it gives my contacts infections which give my eyes infections. But all is well, except that I'm tired all day every day. Either way, dance has taken up a lot of my time. I had to come back to school for it after the AP US test, which leads me to my story.

After the US test, I decided to go to BJ's for lunch. It was soooo good except the waiter didn't like us all too well. I don't know if it's a recurring theme anymore. Last week I had the Psychology test and I went to Red Robins. Again, super good but the waiter didn't even talk to us and just steered clear of our table. But yea.

When I got home, I realized that I left my keys in my laundry basket...at school. But by living in an apartment complex, there's the front office, which has the key to every apartment. It's embarrassing to say that I got locked out of my house at the age of 17, but I sucked it up and got to the front door to the office. When the lady or whoever works there gives a tour to a person that'll live there, they leave a sign saying they'll be back at a certain time. The time on the sign yesterday said 1:50. That was totally cool because I thought I still had five minutes to wait. I walked to my house door because while I was waiting there was a guy in the gym, who thought I was watching him run, but I wasn't! I was just staring off into space, but he got creeped out. And what's worse is while I walked to my house, I passed by the gym again, and since the wall has a TON of windows, I looked inside to see him working out again. I feel like a creeper now...

Either way, got to my door and just sat there. Out of nowhere comes this bug with like little pincher things on its head. Immediately, I smashed it since I've been training myself to get over the fear of insects since they're just really creepy. However, another one came out of a crack and tried to pry its ugly butt into my front door. Unfortunately, I couldn't get to it and could only watch as it walked down the side of my door and just slipped underneath. I gave a really loud WTH. That's just ridiculous. Gross looking things shouldn't be able to just waltz into my freakin' apartment!

After witnessing such monstrosity, I go back to the apartment office to find the workers still gone. At this point I was half freaking out because not only was it 2 and I had to leave in 30 minutes for the dance rehearsal, but the bug was somewhere in my apartment and there wasn't anything I could do.

I waited then gave up hope, walked to Megan's house, half-cried (didn't have the energy to), then walked back, SURE that they would be at the office, I could get my key and I could get like 5 minutes of napping. But alas, they weren't there, it was 2:15. 2:15! How long does a tour take?! Walked back to my apartment and got picked up by Alina, went to dance, then yea.

Needless to say, I didn't find the bug.

SUCCESS

YAYYYYYYYYY!!! AP testing is finally over! I am so happy and releived. I have been looking forward to this day since the beginning of the year and there are no words to describe how happy I am that it is over! Now I can focus on my non- AP classes... like journalism. We are so close to summer!

Poems Are Better Than Blogs

 No offense but it takes me forever to think of something to talk about in a blog. It's because I have to talk about myself or something recent that I experienced or have an opinion about. But either way it still is all about me. Why do I have to talk about myself so much? I'd rather express myself through art or creative writing instead of just pouring out my bland thoughts all the time. Plus, I find creative writing much more fun to read than blogs (again no offense). It's just hard to continue to keep trying to make my life seem interesting enough to put in a blog. I could make a poem or short story much more interesting. 

Just saying...

It's Over!!!

I'M DONE WITH AP TESTING!!! FINALLY!!!

I think I was most worried about AP Bio, but I think APES was the hardest, but that might be just me.

It's such a relief! I watched T.V. today. It felt really good.

Anyway, I'm going to go back to watching T.V. because tomorrow I have to start working on getting my grades back up. Fun stuff.

I feel like such a truant though, because it's Wednesday, and I've only been to school once this week. It would be a dream week, except that I was taking major exams.

Enjoy the rest of the week!

My Dog

I have nothing to blog about, so I guess I will talk about my dog. I have a little 7-pound shih tzu named Maggie. We have had her for her whole life, which is only 6 years.

Anyone who has even come over and seen my dog would vouch for me that she is the stupidest dog on earth. There are several reasons why she is considered the stupidest dog ever:

1) She doesn't know how to go to the bathroom by herself.  You have to stand outside with her and yell at her until she goes.

2) She doesn't know what anything we say means. We tell her to stay, she walks away. We tell her sit, she walks away. We tell her to lay down, she just looks at you like you're crazy.

3) She only does what we say if you give her a treat. Enough said.

4) She hates snuggling. When she is laying down, you go to pet her and you think she would be happy. But noooo, she gets up and walks away.

5) She also hates being confined into an area. We have gates to lock her in the kitchen, which is kinda big, and she freaks out. She freaks out to the point where she squeezes through the little bars in the gate to just get out. She got stuck one time and it was horrible! But, it taught her a lesson. And us one to... The gates are no longer up.

Well, that's my dog. But don't get me wrong. I love her very much! She is super cute... Her best quality.

"People These Days" (JuliS.)

People these days disgust me. They just make me go jfashtqegfaeuilfhyo. But not in the awesome fangirl way, in the I hate you people way. Anyways, 16 days of school left Whoooooooo!


So, yeah.

I'd Like To Think...

I'd like to think my life could be a reality tv show simply because my life is full of nonsense and there are a lot of funny situations in my life that make me laugh. Lately there haven't been too many.

I just want to get pre-calc over with and just chill with my homie during the summer. My homie is my bed because I won't be getting out of it. But seriously, nobody talks to me during the summer, no texts, no "wanna hang out?"s. My life during the summer is pretty boring. But I'd like to think that I'd go on adventures during this summer. It's my last one for high school. But I guess it's nice because I get so done with people and don't want to talk to them.

Juliettes "would-you-rather"s are starting to scare me. Honestly, it's weird. Rainacorns or pegacorns? What? Have you ever not listening in on a conversation, but just watched the actions of people talking? That's what I'm doing now with Juliette and Megan and I gotta say it's real weird. Yea, REAL WEIRD.

Dance show this week! I'm apparently gonna spend 25 hours in dance this week. Yay...I'd like to think I'd be done with AP US after the test, but I won't be.

Reality TV

Now a days television networks make shows about anything.  Most poeple say they are stupid and pointless, however most of us watch some version of a reality show, and I am one of them.  However, I don't understand why poeple tune in to watch other people's lives.  I've seen comercials for everything from "Toddlers and Tiaras" to "Small Town Security".  Most of the reality tv shows don't send good messages either.  For example teen moms, really, is this a show that is neccessary.  All it does is glorify the bad decisions that led young women to become teen moms.  I'm not saying that America shouldn't watch reality tv shows, and at this point they are a part of your culture, but we need to think about some of the ridiculousness that goes on tv.

Mother's Day/Merida's Coronation

Mother's Day is tomorrow and I have decided to give my mom the present she always wants form me: obedience. In short terms, if she says something, I will be a servant and do it. Now, it's not that big, but seeing as how I'm broke and there's a lot of stuff happening, it's a good present right? Yeah.
Also, today has been one of the best so far this month. Guess what!?!?
MERIDA DUNBROCH IS NOW OFFICIALLY A DISNEY PRINCESS. (I apologize for caps, I should control myself!) Merida is one of my favorite Princesses from Disney for multiple reasons and she hasn't been all that popular because her movie, Brave, is similar to Brother Bear, but not entirely. Anyway, the movie was one of my favorites last year and it still is today. And I met Merida last time I went to Disneyland and there was like no line for her (which was sad but good seeing how I got to meet her quicker). But now that she is a full fledged princess of Disney, she is gonna be a bit more popular.
Her coronation was this mornin and she was completely in character (Disney has been changing the looks and actions of the princesses recently and totally beautified her doll which is annoying me, but at least they kept her HER during her coronation). I was worried that she would have some random prince from another princess give her her crown, but Queen Elinor (her mum) did it! It was sooo beautiful. And then all the picture taking happened and

it made me smile so much

So today was pretty happy day. I just hope it continues- I have a movie to attend Thursday night, a mini assignment concerning photos, a book to read and finish soon. And I haven't even started it yet. But thankfully that one isn't a school book so I can take some time.

Countdown...

Only four weeks left of school now...

After APs are over, most of my classes are really winding down, which is nice.

I'm missing two blue days next week for AP testing, so I'll have a lot to catch up on, but it'll be worth it just for it to be over.

FOUR WEEKS

This Week

Wow. I honestly can't believe how fast time is flying by. Just a week ago I was on the senior field trip to six flags, and looking forward to senior ball. Now, that's all over with, I've had my first AP test, taken an Econ Final, and am studying for the AP Bio test on Monday and the AP Econ test on Thursday.

So much has happened, that's it's so hard to even remember it all. I got a job, that I was told wasn't going to start until the end of May, but ended up starting last week. They scheduled me to work a lot these next two weeks, and for 5-7 hour shifts on most days. I later told them that I wouldn't be able to work the days scheduled because I need to study for the AP tests I've been working hard on all year long. And they wanted me to work on Sunday, which is also Mother's Day, and the day before the AP Bio test. So, when they wouldn't let me take a little time off, I had to thank them for the opportunity but tell them that it wasn't going to work out. Back to job hunting!

Have No Shame, Huh, DO

I was at track yesterday and it came to my attention that one of the Del Oro kids had a t-shirt on. That's obvious, but this had BEAT ROCKLIN printed on it. Ummm...they must really have a fixation on us to actually have their OWN t-shirt with OUR school's name on it. That's just...weird. But at least they know they're school ranks under ours! Except they beat us at the meet....Sad face.

I'm really sad that my seniors are leaving me. Like really sad. Marc keeps telling me he won't be leaving and Rahul just stands there while I am on my way to tears! Ugh. I have no time for blogging anymore. My life!

MoThEr'S dAy

I finally figured out what to get my mom for mother's day. I had been thinking on it for at least two weeks, with no idea. First off, my mom is not one to want lotions or perfumes. She has a whole bunch. So after a couple of days, I thought of it.

On Mother's day we usually have all my family come over, and all the moms get a lobster. But this year we are not doing it. people schedules just didn't work out. I'm pretty bummed because I love my family, and when we all get together it's an awesome time.

So yeah, no extended family coming over. But I got my mom's present, so that a plus.

Disneyland

So now that there's only like 25 days of school left, I'm preparing for summer.  Swimming, hanging out with friends, sleeping in.... And the best part, Disneyland.  I'm trying really hard to get my mom to take me this summer, and I've almost got her to say yes.

Since I'm playing softball in Southern California a lot, I think it would be a really good idea to spend a week down there and tour colleges, and spend a few days in Disneyland!

Yeah I know I might be getting too old for Disneyland, but its just so amazing!  It really is the happiest place on earth!

Anastasia

I know that I should be studying for the AP World Exam, but I've recently developed a very distracting addiction. Watching Anastasia. Yes. The animated movie from Fox(not Disney).

It's just really cute and sweet, and the songs are so catchy.

Technically, it's about the Russian Revolution and the Romanov family, so I can pretend that I'm studying world history.

After watching Anastasia for the fifth or so time, I decided that I wanted a few songs from the soundtrack, so I went on iTunes. But NO. EVERY SINGLE SONG from the soundtrack is album only, so I would have to pay $11.99 for songs that were not even in the movie. No thanks.

I am suuuppppeeeerrrrr excited for next week. Not only do I have a french field trip, but I get to go see Stark Trek: Into Darkness at the midnight premiere. I am sad to say that I am not a Trekkie..... But I hope to be one soon. I mean I have all of the movies and the original series and the newer series at home, I just need more time to watch them. Any who, life is sorta easy at the moment, except for allergies. AAAHHHHH I am just so fed up with them. I seriously feel like I am sick, but I have enough energy to run a mile and then some. But my head is all fuzzy, my nose (let's just say that my sense of taste if off...) is not currently in the proper condition it needs to be in and it is getting worse as the season goes on. Tell me why this has to happen. Seriously, not the scientificky answer because my brain won't wrap around it at the moment, but WHYYYY!!!!!?????? There is no logical reason for this to happen. It happens every year and every year I get more and more sick of it. it's life. Yeah, I get it. live with it. Uh huh. Totally. Just, promise to come to my funeral after I die of coughing, 'kay?

GREENBELTS ARE ENVIRONMENTS!!!!!

I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW THAT I THINK I CAN ONLY WRITE IN CAPS! THE CITY OF FRICKEN ROCKLIN IS DEMOLISHING BASICALLY ALL THE TREES IN THE GREENBELT NEXT TO MY HOUSE! WHAT USED TO BE A BEAUTIFUL, COOL, GRASSY ENVIRONMENT IS NOW A FLAT LANDSCAPE OF WOOD CHOPPINGS. EXCUSE ME! THIS IS A HOME (OR I GUESS WAS NOW) FOR MANY ANIMALS SUCH AS RATTLESNAKES, COYOTES, DEER, SKUNKS, RACOONS, TONS OF BIRDS, AND MUCH MORE! NOT ONLY IS THIS BAD FOR THE ENVIRONMENT BUT IT DEFINITELY DECREASES THE PROPERTY VALUE OF MY HOUSE! AND THEY DID NOT EVEN ALERT THE NEIGHBORHOOD! HELLO! THIS IS RIGHT NEXT TO MY HOUSE! IT'S ALMOST LIKE PART OF MY BACKYARD! IT ALSO KEPT OUR BACKYARD A LOT COOLER IN THE 100 DEGREE SUMMERS WITH ALL THE TREES AND GRASS! BUT NOW IT IS JUST A FLATTENED, GROSS STRIP. HOW DARE THEY. MY MOM TALKED TO THEM AND THEY SAID THEY DIDN'T EVEN HAVE A REPLANTING PLAN! ANYWAYS MY MOM MADE THEM FIGURE ONE OUT AND I AM TAKING PICTURES OF IT LIKE ANY JOURNALIST WOULD. I AM JUST SO MAD! I BETTER SEE THEIR REPLANTING PLAN SOON! WHAT KIND OF CITY THINKS IT'S OKAY TO JUST DEMOLISH ALL THE FRICKEN TREES IN A GREENBELT RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF A NEIGHBORHOOD WITHOUT TELLING THE RESIDENTS AND WITHOUT HAVING A REPLANTING PLAN?!?!?! CITY OF ROCKLIN, YOU NEED TO FIGURE YOUR S*** OUT!

boy oh boy

I think that the best few words to describe most of rhs right now (or from my point of view, us sophomores) would be these: frantic, stress, panic, anxiety.
Now occasionally I would describe myself as a few of those above words, but I feel even worse for the rest of my friends. They are super caught up in the AP World Exam next week and I wish the absolute best for them, honestly. I don't have AP World because I would be hanging on by barely a thread if I took that class. I can see how stress and lack of sleep affects my friends with all of those advanced and AP classes. My one friend left early from school and she came back today sick and she doesn't really have a voice as well. The bags under my friends eyes just make me cringe because I know how hard they are working and I love how much they care, but at the same time I'm always worried for them. Does anyone else feel this way? Now I'm not saying that I've never had these times happen to me, I admit whole heartedly that I'm not perfect. No one is, but people try their hardest to attempt perfection. Always a two step forward, two step back process, I guess. Thats just one way to look at it anyway.
The Papparazzi (spelling??) came into our journalism classroom today. They were taking pictures of Mr. Nichols and it looked cool from my perspective. Haha. I really don't know for certain why the Papparazzi was here today. I'll have to ask around. I hear that Mr. Nichols was getting his picture taken of because he's a great journalism teacher. I'll agree to that, he's pretty amazing. And funny. I'm happy that I'm taking Journalism all four years. Its a great experience.
:)

Group Projects

I really do not like group projects.  I understand that they are supposed to teach us valuable skills, but honestly the only thing I have ever learned from a group project is to trust no one.  My grade is important and there is no way I am leaving it in the hands of a classmate.  I always do all the work, and am forced to share the credit.  All I have learned from these projects is that people in general are unreliable, unflexible, and difficult to work with.

I wasn't expecting anything spectacular after experiencing what they gave us at Junior Prom last year, but the food this year at Senior Ball was awful. First they brought out a salad that was so salty and the leafs were bigger than my fist so i couldn't even eat it without having to cut it. Next they brought out lasagna - don't even get me started at how cold it was. There were two different meats they brought out, both covered in salt and cold. I didnt try the chicken but i heard only negative things about it. I wish they would just let us go out and buy our own food before the dance, that way we can all eat what we want and not have to worry about not liking the food. Despite the dinner, it was still a great night and everyone looked gorgeous.

SAT and Parelli

So on Saturday I took the SAT for the first time, and I don't quite know what to think. I'm pretty confidant that I did well on the essay and English portions, but I don't think I did well on the math. I'm more of an English/Literature person anyway, so I'm not expecting to get a good score in the math.

Aside from that, on Sunday my mom and I went to Rancho Murieta Equine Center to watch Pat Parelli give seminars on natural horsemanship. Pat Parelli is the Zeus of the horse world. He is awesome. The way he can train a horse to do so many things is just amazing! After collage, I want to go to Colorado, where he is based, and enter into his training program to learn more about natural horsemanship, and to also learn how to teach others about it.

Overall, it was pretty awesome!  

Cousins

My cousin, Katie, and her boyfriend, Brandon, are visiting from Canada right now. I haven't seen Katie in 5 years and this was the first time I met her boyfriend.

I was honestly a little bit nervous when she first arrived. She might have completely changed her personality since I saw her last. This worry was processing because this happened when my other cousin came to visit. She was so sweet and awesome to talk to, but once she came out here, it took a turn for the worst. She was rude, boring, and nagged a lot.

Thankfully, Katie hadn't changed at all. We are having such a great time and we are bonding so much. I never knew that we were so much alike.

Plus, her boyfriend is one of the sweetest people I know. He treats Katie so well! Brandon is so nice to everyone and I am so glad that he and Katie are dating.

Sadly, they are leaving really early on Wednesday morning. Hopefully, we will be able to visit them soon.

Under Pressure

I am under extreme pressure as of now. I have the AP test looming over me at this minute, I'm feeling the stress. I can't be in pre-calc today, which is unfortunate because that's the class I actually NEED to go to...Anyways, I'm seriously...just whew. I need some sleep. My bags are getting more prominent each day. I look gross, feel gross, and I think I may be getting sick. Like what? Who gets sick in the spring? I was supposed to be eating breakfast right now, but I can't because of the nerves. And I can't find my watch. Ooooh, my life! Got so much to do.

One More Day...

One more day until the APES test... then it'll be one down, two to go.

A recommendation for studying: study a lot over spring break, so you already know everything by the week of AP testing.

A week and a half from now, I will be DONE!

If you aren't taking any APs... I'm extremely jealous of you.

Finally

It only took me two years...but I finally did it.  I broke my parents down and they got me an iPhone!  I have to pay some of the monthly bill, but its totally worth it and I'm finally now the only person with out a smart phone. I finally feel like my parents trust me, so lets hope I don't do anything stupid.

Now that I have this new phone, I think I'm going to be less motivated to study for my AP World test,  which is really bad because I'm already procrastinating.  Oh well at least I'm finally a part of this century.

Can I Say It ENOUGH?

Can I just say that I am SO DONE WITH PEOPLE. People seriously just need to leave. Like GET OUT OF MY FACE type leave. The only things that's really keeping me going is knowing that 1)I'm almost done 2)I'm going to make sure Niraj hangs out with me during the summer 3)Charisse love ME and 4)my adorable freshman are SO CUTE:3 .

I am irked. IRKED, ok more than irked that my AP Psych test is Monday and needless to say; I have not studied. Either way, it doesn't matter. I know I'm excused for the entire day, which is awesome, but the test starts at 12 and that's exactly when Pre-Calc is (the only class I actually need to attend). Ugh, took a practice test for AP US and according to the numbers provided by Benzel's class, I got a straight up 3. If I had missed one more question, it would've been a two. Not that I care about what I get. Honestly, I want to prolong the AP test date simply because I don't want to dance and sing for a music videos. Those should be left to the people with good cameras.

Still, so angry. People. I think people should stay away from me and my hair for the next couple of days. I am NOT in a good mood, and there's one really good reason why (and a thousand little reasons why), in which I cannot say because that would be no bueno/I have the right to not say it. Just know that I am like screaming inside my head and having a non-stop rant fest because I am just sooooooooo done. SOOOO freakin' done. If anybody gets my reference, I feel like Brenda in the movie theaters for Scary Movie 3. Hilarious, couldn't attach the link, but still...funny.

I have been invited to randomly show up and eat burritos with Luis, which I am seriously considering. Burritos sound good.

So yea: PEOPLE NEED TO LEAVE ME ALONE unless I'm on good terms with you, which isn't many.

Track Woes

There is only one more week until the end of the Track season and to be quite frank I cannot wait. Yeah yeah I know it is a terrible feeling to have going into League Finals but it is the truth! This season has seriously been the worst seasons in the history of seasons and I cannot wait to be done with it and off to cross. Oh cross county how I miss you. I do love running and I always will but track has been terrible. We have had an awkward transitional year adjusting to our new coach along with a mass amount of unneccesary team drama. Like what.... Not to mention the fact that I have only actually raced twice this season, needless to say I have been pitifully slow which I am not used to. There is zero hope in me and I am just counting down the days for this tragedy of a season to be over, put me out of my misery.