Senior Night

As my last cross country season nears an end, with only two more weeks left, I can’t help but look back on my three years with the team. While I’ve had both good and bad moments in cross country, I love it and I couldn’t have asked for a better experience. I have met so many amazing people, people that are now some of my best friends. While running is always a challenge, it is also very rewarding. The comradeship on this team in unlike any I have ever seen or experienced, and I know I will miss it.
Last Friday was league finals at William Jessup and it was also Senior Night. When Pereira called my name to come up to the front, along with the four other senior girls, I suddenly realized just how little time left there is before the season is over. Looking over at the people next to me, who I have been running with for four years, I suddenly became really sad but determined to make the best of these last few races. As the rest of the girls handed out the senior gift, blankets they had made for us, I couldn’t help but feel so lucky to know such awesome and caring people; I will most definitely miss them.

Steve Job's Final Words

The story in the link is about a Steve Job's sister, Mona Simpson, describing Job's last words on his death bed. His last words surprisingly were "Oh wow, oh wow, oh wow". Simpson read his words in his eulogy during Job's funeral. In my opinion the writer did a good job on the article because its a cool topic that pulls your heart strings and is kinda nice to know. The article was pretty short but its good length since there wasn't a whole lot else to write about.

A Haiku

Haikus don't make sense
Some have 7 syllables
Refridgerator

I'm weird.

A few days ago during class, I was sitting there tuning out the monotone droan of my teacher's lecture, and I realized something. I'm weird. The more I think about it, the more I realize I am definitely not like every other teenage girl. Let me explain a little...

First off, I love girly things: shopping, clothes, make up, jewelry, chick flicks, anything you can think of. I spend an hour getting ready in the morning, and I have more shoes than the capacity of my closet, and I read fashion magazines over the newspaper. My nails are always painted and I'm always after the new designer bag.

Here comes the catch. One 0f my favorite things in life is sports. Football, baseball, hockey, UFC, I don't care what it is but I love it! For the past 12 years I have played soccer basically my entire life, and I play on a comp team. I'm a die hard San Francisco Giants, San Jose Sharks, and Minnesota Vikings fan. One of the happiest days of my life was when the Giants won the World Series. During football season, my Sundays involve my butt on the couch all day. Not only to watch the Vikings, but every other team playing to watch my players for my Fantasy Football team. And in case any of you are wondering, no, I'm not one of those girls who Google what a strikeout or a touchdown is so they can impress all the guys. My bedroom walls are filled with Adrian Peterson posters, autographed hockey jerseys and so much more.

Along with my girly side, and my athletic side, there also comes a nerdy side. I have had straight A's my entire life and will never settle for anything less. Math is my aboslute favorite subject, and I actually don't mind doing the homework. I spend my weekend mornings and afternoons playing Scrabble with my dad. I wear glasses, I read my horoscope every day and I love watching game shows on TV.

I could write an entire essay on how different I am, but I'm a little worried if too many people read this I won't have any friends anymore. So we will leave it at this :-)

High School Halloween

Remember back in the day when Halloween meant dressing up as ghosts, clowns, witches and ninja turtles, all with the intention of having the best costume in class? Dinnertime came and it was the least you could do to nibble at your food (to your mom's dismay), just so you would still have an appetite for candy? Finally, when it seemed like it couldn't come any sooner, the sun sets, the streets become dark and it is "go-time". Making the treacherous climbs up steep driveways, and screaming "TRICK OR TREAT" may seem horribly unbearable, but watching the free candy drop into the pumpkin buckets, pillowcases and paper bags, brings a type of thrill like no other.

To tell the truth, we all know this excitement ended 3 or 4 years ago...

Times have changed, and the game of Halloween is completely different than it used to be. Girls use the day as an excuse to dress like sluts. And the guys? They use the day as an excuse to look at the girls who dress like sluts. Our sweet Cinderella dresses have evolved into Little Red Riding Hood bras and skirts, that are half way up the 'you know what'. Ladies, I don't want to see your assets hanging out everywhere. And guys, stop acting like pigs.

Let's move on from holiday attire to holiday festivities. Well some may still go trick or treating (who doesn't want free candy?), the majority of the high school population are out partying all night long. I don't even need to discuss what goes on at the parties...

I'm not trying to bag on Halloween, I'm just more of a Christmas and 4th of July person. So this weekend ladies and gentlemen, have some class, be mature and please be safe.....Happy Halloween :-)

why?

Religion is a touchy subject. Even just typing the word evokes sudden thoughts of prejudice. This one single idea has caused so many schisms, strife, and hatred in the world. Isn't religion suppose to be a refuge for people seeking something to believe and have faith in? To the spiritually right, religion was never intended for that.
I think of it as a personal entity. Something that gives the indivudal hope of something greater in the future. It gives people the strength to live their life morally correct.
To me, religion is this elusive bridge between your reality and what you believe. Its your OWN. Religion gives you power to do what you believe in. The choices and decisions you make for your belief are all up to you.

Okay, now why blog about something as random as religion?

I am a Buddhist and know that I will always be a Buddhist. But, somehow to friends
close to me, that isn't good enough. My belief, they say, is not valid. It doesn't correspond with what they believe in and so it's "non-existance". I always hold my tongue but I just want to burst out screaming, "It's what I believe! This is who
I am! Get over it."

Isn't that hard to just let me be? To let me live my life without having to make me question myself? Religion is my personal refuge. Yet, for the past few years, their religious fervor has clouded this sacred belief that I have.

All I have to say is just leave me be. Don't try to convert me, don't try to force me into finding the greater being of some other religion, and don't force to me to find your so-called god.

I have my beliefs. Deal with it.

(just needed to rant... thanks)

Best Friend?

Last time I checked, a best friend is supposed to be someone who is there for you no matter what, who listens to you and cares about your problesm. Oh, and someone who is happy for you when your life is going good. That's what I have problems with. Why is it that whenever the rest of my life is great, my best friend cannot be happy for me? It seems for the last couple weeks we have had the same continuous arguement over and over again. This never-ending cycle is getting on my last nerves and I cannot help but feel betrayed.

Whining and blaming me for your problems is not something I appreciate, nor will I tolerate. So when you decide you are over it, I'll be here. But apologizing for something that I do not do is ridiculous.

So what is a best friend, and how hard are they to come by? Apparently very hard.

Stress

I find my self being more stressed lately, which is strange because i've never been the person to stress out. Even last year during the crazy that is AP world i never really stressed. Or when i ran varsity for the first time for Cross Country, no real stress. But this year Stress seems to becoming more and more common. During Cross Country, I ususally don't stress very much over racfes and well because of it but this year it seems i can't help but stress over everything. My classes are more difficult but not etremely more difficult then before. Stress is a very strange thing.

Please Help Me

So I need help. It is a problem every day. I can not manage my time this year. Maybe it's because I put too much on my plate, but I feel as if my homework and extracirriculars are taking over my life. I feel as if I have no time to do what I want to do. For once, I would just like to sit back and enjoy watching a movie, or go out shopping with my friends. But no, I am always busy. Maybe after tennis season is over I will have more time . Don't get me wrong, I love tennis and my team, but with practice getting out at 5:30 every day and with matches ending around 7, it's been really difficult to manage my time. On most days I'm not able to start my homework until 7 ath the soonest, and with taking all the Honor and AP classes I'm able to I don't get a lot of sleep each night. 5 hours each night just doesn't do much. I constatnly rely on caffine to get me through each day. It's starting to become unhealthy. So if any of you have suggestions, please tell me, because I definitely need HELP.

Baking treats

I want to bake Halloween treats but i have no time! thats all i want to do but im too busy with all of my work with school and cheer. so i dont have anytime to do that which is frustrating but hopefully soon i will make the time to do it before this weekend i just hope that what ever i make will taste yummy! fall always seems to have the best food! between the apples, turkey, pie, and treats i can never get enough. i think that this year i may have actually come to the conclusion that fall is my favorite season wish me luck with my hopes of baking Halloween treats!

New phone!!!!

So, I have had the same phone since the summer after sixth grade, so it was time to get a new one. I'm not obsessed with using my phone, and I don't really use it much at home. But... I did get a new phone, and I love it! One of the things I love most, is that when someone texts me, it shows up right away, because on my old phone, it took about ten minutes for a voicemail or text to show up on the screen. I know, it's shocking. Thank goodness for technology :) Yeah, so I just thought I should blog about my joy.

Joy -----> :) :) :) :) :) :)

A Sonnet to S&D

Speech and Debate
My new life
Competing to pontificate
It's causing me some strife

My partner and I
(He is 6'3)
We are unevenly matched
Argue much, do we

Our 2nd tourney
is on the morrow
Where we will journey
And hopefully debate without sorrow

But if we win
I'll have a really big grin

:)

My life

It's senior year. Nothing can stop me.
This year, I'm going to do whatever the hell I want. No regrets.
I'm a completely different person now; so much has changed since freshman year.
I'm not going to listen to your rules anymore. I'm going to make my own.
I'm going to live life in the here and now, not in the past or for the future.
I'm going to live my life the way I want, not the way you want. Ok? Deal.

AlPal

So there's this girl.... she's crazy, no joke crazy....obsessive, compolsive, i think she has a disorder. Sometimes she gets on my nerves or says stuff that makes ZERO sense like she's speaking gibberish or some language only a 2 year old can understand... she makes this annoying laugh to sometimes that she thinks i like, but no joke...i don't! But that's all cool with me because she's no drama with me (for the most part), she helps me out with any problems i got, she's funny, outgoing (CRAZY outgoing), and a good friend overall who has a good sense of adventure haha. Overall i'd give her a 9.5/10...she just really needs to work on that annoying damn laugh! ;) AlPal for the win!

NBA LOCKOUT CRY

OHHHHHHHHH THIS SUCKS!
I DONT WANT TO HAVE WATCH THE ANAHEIM DUCKS,
THE NBA IS PERFECT,
IT IS WHAT I NEED,
WITHOUT MY LAKERS,
MY HEART WILL BLEED,
THIS IS MY CRY,
FOR THE SPORT I LOVE,
STAND UP PLAYERS,
GET HELP FROM THE MAN ABOVE!

My Week

The last two weeks have been packed with homework and tests, and this week I have not had barely any any homework for two nights in a row. All I have is math, which isn't too difficult. This is the first time all year where I can sit, and do homework without having to think about everything else I have to do! This week is great so far!

BOO!

Two days before Halloween I plan on visitng Six Flags for my first time at Fright Fest! Everything is Halloween decorated and zombies roam the park ready to scare you, so I'm pretty excited. I checked the Fright fest website...and it said Ages 13 and under shouldn't go...so I'm kind of freaked out now. Anyways, I have been really into Halloween this year, volunteering at a Haunted House, getting my costume at Evangalines, and running a pumpkin run 5k! I'm being a gypsy and I'm really excited to volunteer at Corbett's House of Horror again (read my story on the web) because it is so thrilling! It seems surreal, everything is so realistic, and I can go crazy and make others go crazy!

Do It. Now.

I just tried Icing on the Cupcake's new "Pumpkin" cupcake and OH MY GOODNESS. I FELL IN LOVE. It tasted heavenly.
I recommend it to anyone who wants a really good taste of the Autumn Season. The cake part tasted like pumpkin bread except 10x better and the frosting was a type of cream-cheese frosting that complimented the flavor of the cupcake very well.
Just go try it.
Seriously.
It's freaking AMAZING.

Genghis Khan

Well, my life is now dictated by Genghis Khan, the most retarded book ever written for no purpose except to torture high school students taking AP World. Like really, what is the reasoning for reading a book such as this?!
Now all my time is dedicated to finishing what happens to him...but the thing is, I already know what happens! HE CONQUERS AND DIES. THE END. Therefore, I shouldn't need to read this because the time I'm using for reading the book could be spent on time for sleeping or napping. I don't see what other knowledge I could possibly obtain from reading this freaking 200-page book.
I say this whole project and me having to write 5 pages worth of crap is STUPID and NOT USEFUL. What in the world will writing 5 pages of Genghis Khan and his accomplishments do for me? The only thing it is doing is making me hate school, homework, teachers and authors. Not that I hate the AP World teachers, but seriously, I'm dying from reading this book.

quarter

ahhhh its the end of the quarter and there is soooo much work due. so im trying to stay on top of everything and get it all done :) wish me luck with my test tomorrow!

Junior Year

These past few weeks have been so stressful! Junior year was supposed to be my year where i actually have a lot of fun and everything is stress free. Well so far its been the exact opposite. I know that Junior year is the most important year because its the year colleges supposedly focus on. Knowing that just makes me worry about my grades which aren't amazing right now and I really wonder how this year is going to turn out. I just feel like there is always so much to do and never enough time.

I wish the days could be longer...

San Francisco

Last weekend one of my friends, Danielle Huddlestun, and I took a trip to San Francisco to visit another friend at the University of San Francisco. I left school at 10:30 on Friday and my dad drove me to UC Davis to meet Danielle. After having lunch at the dining commons we rushed over to meet the bus that would take us to the Amtrak station in Davis. After some confusing directions we found the train station and boarded the train. The train ride went by quickly and we got off at the Richmond Amtrak Station in order to connect to BART. We took the BART from Richmond all the way into San Francisco and got off at the UN Plaza. From there we had to catch the bus to take us to USF. This was the challenging part, because we knew what bus to take but we didn’t know where it stopped. As we were walking along trying to find it we saw the bus coming, so we ran to catch it. Barely making it in time and dropping quarters all over the floor we were able to sit down and figure out when we need to get off. When we asked the driver when we would get to Fulton and Parker St. he replied that we were on the right bus but heading in the wrong direction. So at the next stop we got off, crossed the street, and waited for the bus to come in the opposite direction. Finally we got on the right bus, and after what seemed to be a very long bus ride, we got off at the school. The rest of the evening was must less stressful and we had a good time going to dinner, walking to the beach, and getting milkshakes for dessert. Later we watched Tangled in the dorm rec room and then went to bed. Luckily my parents were came the next to take us back so we would not have the stress of figuring out how to get home.

. . .

To be honest, I have no idea what to blog about. The last two weeks have been fun and busy and it all seems like a blur. Like it's all one big day.
I just want today's school day to be over so I can go home and watch all the shows I have recorded on my DVR. I'm pretty sure there are at least 7 shows. And who knows how many episodes there could be for each one.

Oh. And I didn't get my coffee this morning.
Beware.

Movies

I was just talking to Liz, and she was saying that she has an eight-disc combo pack of the Lion King.

I am not a huge fan of animations in general, so I have seen the beginning of the Lion King, but I have never finished it.

I have also never seen Aladdin, Toy Story, Toy Story 2 or Mulan. Neither really appeal to me, and I don't know why.

But, I do like Finding Nemo, and Cars is pretty good. (Can you tell that my brother influences me?)

I have watched Toy Story 3, because my little brother was obsessed, but I fell asleep because I was so bored.

Is there something wrong with me???

NBA Cancels First Two Weeks of Play

Well, the first two weeks of the NBA season has offically been cancelled. No solution was found on how to seperate the $4 Billion in league revenues, team pay-rolls, player salaries. A whopping total of 100 games have been cancelled between Nov. 1st and Nov. 14th. This is the kind of news that really saddens me. I can't afford to see the NBA season being shortened like this. Worst of all, if no labor deal is set by the end of November, another two weeks of games will probably be cancelled as well. Right now, I am just hoping I can sit down and enjoy a normal basketball game. I really can't imagine seeing the season starting Dec. 1st. That would just be awful. Lets just hope its only two weeks.

Disney Fan (:

So about 3 weeks ago my mom finally pre-ordered the Lion King 8-disc Blue-Ray combo pack. And last week, IT ARRIVED, so as you can imagine, I was just estatic!!!! I love Disney. So when my mom and I watched it, we cranked the volume up and burst out in song whenever the characters did. It was quite fun. And in doing so, I had a glimpse of what my childhood was like and how I am going to miss things like this in the future because even now, they are replacing the good 'ol classic's with junk and misfortunate shows. So buying and rewatching something as classic as The Lion King really made me sad for the younger generations. At least I have something that will be known as a true Disney "classic" in a couple of years(:

Me in words.

How do I sum up everything I am into 1000 words or less?

Because I have to, it determines the entire rest of my life. And that is why I hate college applications.

I have become obsessed with the idea of going to University of Maryland, and I don't think I've wanted anything more in my entire life. Every time I think about not getting in, or not being able to afford it, I start to freak out and hyperventilate and.. I'm just a real mess.

I'd really like to fast forward a few months, and be done with this nonsense and know where I'm going to be for the next 4 years. Then maybe I'll be able to catch a glimpse of what the rest of my life is going to look like. Because right now, frankly, I'm lost.

Lion King 3D

Last Tuesday, I saw Lion King 3D with my cousin and mom at Blue Oaks. It was pretty great; the Lion King is definitely one of my favorite movies of all time. I watched it practically everyday of my childhood. Classic Disney movies are so hilariously witty. My mom, cousin, and I laughed through most of the movie, but the rest of the auditorium, mostly little kids, didn't seem to get the jokes. It's weird to think that the first time some of the small children of today saw the Lion King was in 3D. Disney's cool for bringing a classic into the new era with 3D effects, but it didn't radically change the movie experience that much.

Now that the Disney movies of our childhood are considered 'classics,' it's hard to imagine new movies being created with as much class. It seems like Disney's high time was the 90's; except for Tangled. Tangled was brilliant. The other day I was watching Popeye and discovered that it first came out in 1936. My mom used to watch it in French when she was a kid, and I watched it when I was younger as well. Right now it doesn't seem that anything recent will be around for over 70 years to come. In my opinion, the best cartoons are the oldies -- before they became gross and barbaric.

Christmas Please Come Sooner !

So, I love Christmas. For me though, it's not really about the presents. Don't get me wrong, presents are great and all, but I just love everything about Christmas. The day after Thanksgiving is one of my favorite days in the entire year. The radio stations start playing Christmas music! I love listening to Andrea Bocelli's Christmas songs the most. Listening to Christmas music makes me happy. It's as simple as that. Another reason why I love Christmas is that everyone seems to be happy. I know this sounds "cliche", but it's true. During Christmas, everyone seems to just be in a better mode! For me Christmas is the most wonderful time of the year. I love singing carols with my family, watching Christmas shows and movies on ABC family, baking cookies with my sisters, and shopping for my friends and family. However, the most important thing about Christmas is its true meaning. I was raised in a Roman Catholic family, and Christmas is one of the most important times in the entire year. I honestly can 't wait for Christmas to come sooner. So Christmas please come!

You All Are Wrong

No, rain does not have a smell. No, it does not look beautiful outside after it rains. No, I don't want to hear about what you are wearing to school from now on. No, nobody is going to go over to your house to be your "snuggle buddy". Is every teenager delusional? It's becoming ridiculous the obsession kids have with rain and winter. Am I the only who who absolutely HATES it? I don't find the joy and excitement in being poured on with rain, while the wind is making everything ten times colder. Maybe I'm crazy? Maybe I'm the one who is wrong and everyone is right. But personally, I'd rather be wearing shorts and tank tops every day, enjoying the warm sunshine and getting a tan. I feel like we only had a few months of warm weather. The first 2 weeks of my summer were freezing. If I hear one more of these pointless statuses on Facebook, I might scream. If you all love rain so much, move to Washington or the East Coast. Save room for the people who want hot California weather, stop taking up space. You all are just pissing me off.

Weekend

I don't know about anybody else, but the weekend just can't come soon enough. The rain and cold weather seem to make the week drag on and on. And people tend to be more tired when it rains. Lucklily, it's not supposed to rain this weekend, or for the first part of next week. Hopefully it will stay that way for the rest of the month. The rain should hold off until the end of November, its not winter yet.

Rain Rain Go Away!!!

All over facebook people are posting, "snuggle weather <3" or "it's raining :)" to which I say, "What is wrong with you people?" Have you forgotten the long, hideous winter we had? The winter that didn't end until June? Seriously, this year we have had a total of three months of sunshine, what is this? This is California! The sunshine state! I see no sunshine!

There is probably nothing I hate more than being cold. No I do not look forward to snuggling, no hot chocolate will not make it all better, and no Christmas does not make up for it! I should live in Hawaii, where it is hot even in December. Either way, it is completely unfair that only three months of the year was sunny. Mother nature, please reconsider.

I Should Be Canadian

Fall, the beginning of sweatshirts, UGGs and rain. I hate all of it, I'd rather be on a beach getting a tan. However, I'm more of a person who looks on the bright side of things, so fall also means football and hockey. I know what you are thinking. Hockey? Yes. It's not a very popular sport in our country, but it is life and death for the people of Canada. Hockey is one of my favorite sports to watch! It's so exciting, but only if you are into it; otherwise, it is beyond boring. I never liked it until my uncle got my family tickets to a San Jose Sharks game 4 years ago. Our seats were right on the glass, behind the goalie. It was easily the best experience of my life. I could ramble on and on about how much I love the sport, but in reality, most of you are reading this thinking, "Who cares?". So I'm not going to bother. At least give it a shot, you may be surprised.

Beanies, beanies, beanies!!!!

With this wonderful cold weather were having, my boyfriend bought me some beanies. At first when he texted me saying he bought me some beanies, I thought he ment beanie babies. So I embaressed myself when I called him my, "big beanie baby," and he was like, "they are hats btw..."

Anyways, so last night when he came over to watch Glee with me, he gave me the beanies. I am rocking one right now it is a warm cookie monster one that is Rocklin colors since I'm going to a cross country meet today.

He also got me a scooby doo one that has ears and a spongebob one that is also very warm. So, as long as the weather stays like this, I will be sporting the character beanies to school.

Meh, ready fro a break

Yeah definately ready for a break. With all these tests coming, and the ones that have already came,piling homework, unnecessary stress, I just can't wait to wait to wake up and not have to worry about school and just sleep. Call me lazy, but I have a good feeling that you would like that too right now haha. Soooo when is our next break?

SAT's at Placer

This past Saturday was one of the last few opportunities for seniors to take the SAT’s. Because I registered late there was no seats left at Rocklin and so I was forced to choose the closest available spot, Placer High School in Auburn. Saturday morning I woke up much earlier than my friends taking the test at Rocklin and began my half hour drive up to Auburn with my MapQuest directions in hand. After one missed turn and some confusing directions I eventually found the high school. It was about 7:40 a.m. and the parking closest to the library was full. I then had to drive down the street a ways, park by the track, and walk the few blocks back up to the school. When I arrived at the library I found my room assignment (room 525). Never having been to the school and not knowing anyone to ask for help, I had no idea where it was. But with the help of a few signs and a teacher I was able to get to my room on time. The test went pretty smoothly, although the time seemed to drag on forever. About three-fourths of the way through the test, the power went out in the classroom. Luckily I was near a window and it wasn’t too dark, but the disruption had interrupted my thoughts. The test proctor added a minute onto our time to make up for the outage, but the power remained out for the remainder of the test. Finally at 12:40 we were released to go home. Finding my way back to the freeway was difficult but I finally found the on-ramp I needed and, at last, I was on my way home.

test

even though last week was homecoming it seems like teachers just piled on the workload this week. i don't know about you but i had a test everyday this week. Monday: Spanish test, Tuesday: AP test, Wednesday: another Spanish test, Thursday: AP test, psych test, Friday math test, and a presentation. but i accomplished one of my goals by not procrastinating and getting a B on my AP us test so even with all of that i would say it was a pretty good week :)